~Reflection~
Monday, November 3, 2014
Forget what you thought
'Cause good girls are bad girls that haven't been caught.
So just turn around and forget what you saw
'Cause good girls are bad girls that haven't been caught.
Good girls- 5 Seconds of Summer
Greetings fellow faithful readers.
[If I have one hahaha XD]
So.. this is just gonna be a random post.
I've been reading back my old blog posts for these past few weeks..and done some self-reflection.
Old blog posts as in those from 4-6 years ago =P
And to be honest, sometimes I feel like smashing myself with some hard object on my head.
or banging myself to the wall and have some kind of concussion and to not admit that I was the one who wrote those posts and actually made them readable to public..
But, that's a lil' extreme =P
So, I have to resent that those actually happened and to accept my immaturity back then..
Anyway, I started blogging back in 2008.
Before this blog, I had another blog under Friendster.
But, there's nothing much in that blog because basically it was filled with school events or what I did in school.
And then, Friendster got shut down and I lost that blog..
Not sure if losing that blog is a good thing. So that I don't get embarrassed at myself. Hrmm...
So yea. =) I've been actually blogging for more than 6 years already. *clap clap*
And to be honest, I am glad to have this blog.
It has been one of the best companions I have in my life.
I poured my heart out on this blog and wrote down events that happened in my life and my inner thoughts.
My blog is kinda like the actual timeline of my life and it's good to have it as I can randomly look back and reminisce those times.
Although there were certain events that I did not blog about as I prefer to just write them down somewhere else.
Back in STE, we discussed a few ways on how we can release our stress.
And one of the many ways suggested is that you can write down whatever that bothers you somewhere.
And it's true. My blog has been a getaway for me.[Besides twitter=P]
To release my stress and to write whatever thoughts I have that are bothering me.
Blogging does release my stress when I don't feel like sharing my problems with anyone at that moment.
Basically I type down whatever that has been containing in me for too long and post it. and the next thing is that I probably don't remember about it =)
And to have these posts, whenever I read them back, I would be able to remind myself to be strong and whatever obstacles that I face are just temporary.
And that I can get through them..
One of the many reasons I started blogging is for self-reflection in the future haha XD
I love to read back my old posts..Although some posts make me wanna smack my head real hard.
Or some posts make me wanna puke so badly. hahaha XD [no offence if those post happen to be about you =/ ]
and sometimes I wonder if I have changed. In a good way or the other.
People said I have changed. And I am still wondering if I have.
But one thing's for sure is that I am not the person who I used to be.
I wouldn't say that I am completely different from last time.
There are certain parts in me that are still the same.
But in terms of perspectives on the world, I guess it has changed a lot.
Not sure if it's a good thing. hahaha XD
During STE, there was this session where we have to imagine our past selves and ask what are the things we wanna change in the past.
To be honest, during that session I was falling asleep [because they asked us to close our eyes and we were in total darkness] so I did not participate fully =P
And hrm, people would say they want to undo their mistakes and regrets in the past.
But personally, I think, I would not change a thing =)
Why? Simply because if I were to change something, I wouldn't be who I am today.
And of course, I wouldn't learn anything. Life's a learning process.
And if I am so wise from the beginning, I wouldn't know what is disappointment, what is heartache, what is rejection. So basically everything is perfect.
And being completely perfect is boring =P
Life's a roller coaster. There are bound to be ups and downs.
We learn from each mistake. and we become a better person =D
Reading back some of my posts which are so mushy, I realised that there's no point blogging about how I feel towards a particular someone on my blog.
Somehow, I think writing those, maybe some will go aww. and to some, they will just hate you for writing too much about that particular someone. cheesy. and probably disgusted hahaha XD
and then, your posts are nothing but plain boring.
I dunno. maybe I was childish. or maybe because I just needed to rant somewhere. or maybe because I thought my blog is like my diary. [pfft. diary. a diary is not meant to be read! hahaha]
But I guess my posts were too much. Too many of them were too mushy. haha XD
But yea, I chose not to delete them despite they cause massive embarrassment in me.
I'd like to have them here in my blog =) Because sometimes, I would just read and have a good laugh at myself and tell myself to never be that same person again. No offence. haha.
If there's something I wanna tell a particular someone, I've learnt that I should just speak up.
Tell that person straight away. Instead of blogging about how much I miss, love, think of or need that particular someone.
If that person means so much to me, I wouldn't be blogging my feelings on my blog when I could just tell them straight to that person.
I don't need the whole world to know =)
Well, just my thoughts.
Personally, I think there's no point publicizing how much you miss or love a particular person. [ okays maybe you can do it once in a while, but, not too frequently. ]
Any feelings you have towards someone, tell that person straight away.
it means more than blogging.
Sometimes, I see people posting pictures on instagram, on facebook with their other halves too frequently or too mushy for no apparent reasons. D=
I mean like, I get it. you're in love and all.
And some pictures kinda cause discomfort to followers or your friends.
[and don't tell me to unfollow or unsubscribe them. I am just saying it's a lil' immatured to post some "stuffs"]
But sometimes, it's good to just keep stuffs to both of you instead of posting them on facebook and instagram.
I mean, those pictures kinda lost their meanings.
As in, sometimes you guys have moments you wish to keep them to yourselves.
And if you post every single event, it's like, everyone knows every single one of your story already.
for instance, owh you went here and there with so and so. and you ate this and that with so and so at this restaurant.
You kinda lost something special you have with the other person.
Certain stories are meant to be shared, certain, well they are meant to be kept =)
Keep some, show some that you think it's worth showing =)
I am not saying it is wrong to post them. You can. but occasionally. choose when's the right time and what's the right one.
It's all about sharing and appreciating the moments you have with the other person =)
Not boasting about the moments ;D
Perhaps, I am a low profile kind of person.
[pfft. excuse my past self =P I wasn't so low profile afterall eh? HAHAHA XD]
I don't really want people to know much of my story.
Just people who worth knowing.
One of the many reasons I want to keep things low profile is because people talk a lot..
They know a lil' , they create another story.
So it's best that they don't know so they can't create any bullshytes.
Okays, I am just saying what's in my thoughts only. haha XD
again, these are just random thoughts..
I am sorry if they are offensive in any way =/
This is just based on my self-reflection.
Again, it does not apply to anyone =)
I would like to apologise for all those grammatical errors.
I should go for English language classes soon. mehh hahaha xD
Thanks for reading.
Till here. bye! =D
"Learn to love yourself first, Before loving others."
10:59 PM
