~Direction~
Monday, March 21, 2016
I know this love is heading in the same direction,
That's up.
"Up- Olly Murs Ft. Demi Lovato"
Hi, all!
This is just gonna be a very random post =)
So.. I am having this mixed feelings. haha xD
I have about 26 days left till the last day of work here.
Time does fly.
The past month has been a little hectic to me as I was rushing to catch up with my project.
In about two weeks time, I have to submit my project report to my university's supervisor before her visit to evaluate my presentation and project.
Sometimes, I wish I have more time to complete the whole project.
To further investigate the scope of the project.
Although I have already achieved the main objectives of the project given, I wish to continue my research.
But, due to time constraint, I have to just complete what I have to.
The project given to me had made me discover new interests in me.
The urge to understand a certain subject deeper.
The determination to get the solutions.
I guess, office-based job is definitely not for me in the future. haha xD
I like to see new things. To participate in hands-on activities. Hrmm..
So. 26 days left. I am happy that I will be able to be in the arms of my family and loved one soon. And that I can finally see my friends and have some fun together before my final year.
Owh and those food hunting. Cafe hopping.
And my endless desires of Penang food! XD
I was thinking of losing some weight once I am back home as I am eating so much here. But, nehh. Let's just put off that goal =P
I am also sad to know that I do not have much time left with these amazing people here. I want to learn more from them.
I'm also sad to know that I have not traveled enough.
I wish to see the world more.
But, I guess, time is my biggest enemy now. haha xD
So many things to settle but so little time!
I wish to travel to Europe one day.
I turned down my Europe trip a couple of months ago due to unforseen incident which occurred.
I was not disappointed but I was glad to be able to be back home to give my family the mental and physical supports which they needed.
And also, to take time off for my healing phase.
It is always my dream to travel to Europe.
But, I guess, I will just save my Europe trip with my other half ;D
I have traveled all over the United Kingdom.
And, this place, is simply beautiful and amazing!
except for the weather. I have this love-hate relationship with the weather here haha XD
If I were to be given another chance to experience all of these again, I would gladly take it up without any second thoughts!
My experience in the United Kingdom has changed me a lot =)
I am not sure if it is in a good way or the other.
But, I have definitely grown more matured and independent ever since I got here.
I'd say my confidence and communication skills have also escalated because I had to talk to different suppliers and people to get my jobs done.
I have learnt to settle my bills [which is something I have never done back home =P], search for interesting places to go, manage my own transportation, manage my own savings, meet new people, learn technologies which I have never seen before, eat different kinds of food [Recently, I had kangaroo meat for lunch, and that will be my first and last experience. It's not that bad but I just feel guilty for eating kangaroo meat =(].
To be honest, this experience is definitely once in a lifetime =)
I do enjoy my stay here despite the constant homesickness that kicks in from time to time.
But yea. This journey has been such a blessing to me =)
I could never have this unforgettable journey without God, my family, loved one and friends =)
I have finally achieved my goal to actually study/work in the United Kingdom.
One mission accomplished from my bucket list! =P
I still remember the first day when I arrived the United Kingdom.
I was exhausted but excited.
Excited to start my first trip in this beautiful country [England. The country where I live in].
I remember the struggles we had during the first few weeks.
Trying to get used to the weather, the English, the food.
And we had quite a tight budget as well in the first month.
As days went by, we have gotten more comfortable with our surroundings and workloads.
And now... the days left here is in two-digit.
From a three-digit to a single digit soon.
It's scary how time flies so fast before us realising it.
My supervisor told me this statistics the other day.
A human being lives up to an average of 4000 weeks (about 75 years) in his/her life.
Which is kinda scary because I have lived a quarter of it already. D=
So yea. He has been reminding us to make every day count =)
Being sad for the whole day is simply a day wasted.
Fill it with lots of positiveness. Live life to the fullest.
Afterall, life is so short and fragile.
It can be taken away anytime.
I know this sounds scary but, this is just a circle of life =)
So yea. =) This is just a random post.
I am gonna miss this place. The people here. Definitely, I will.
And I will also visit the United Kingdom in the near future.
Hopefully when I save enough =P
Till then, bye!!!
Take care!
"Strength."
1:21 AM
~Time~
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Time.
Is just what I need.
I keep finding myself moving from denial to acceptance and then to denial constantly.
It takes time.
This is indeed a big change to me.
At times, I feel that I am strong.
And that I have moved on.
I have accepted it.
Life goes on.
And I have put it behind me.
I stay positive.
And that I am thankful for the unforgettable journey I had.
I constantly tell myself that I will make you proud.
I will live well. And that you do not have to worry about me.
And when I thought I am fine, memories suddenly just hit me and I am back to square one.
Back to being lost.
Back to being weak.
And sometimes, it frustrates me because those were just memories.
I wish. We had a little more time.
I wish I could talk to you. I wish I could hear your voice one last time.
I have so many things to do. To achieve. To tell you. To show you.
All of these happened too soon.
Too shocking for me to take in.
It's gonna be almost two months.
Two months went by fast.
But not long enough for me to recover.
Time.
Is simply what I need.
1:26 AM
