~Life's Too Short~
Sunday, February 28, 2016
Hello, everyone!
This is just gonna be a very random post as well :D
On a Friday morning, as I was walking from home to the building I work in, I was approached by this one guard at the guard house.
[He's pretty cool ;D he plays XBox at his age! I am guessing he's about 50 something already ;D]
I wished him "good morning" and asked how is he doing.
Suddenly, he popped this question to me. "Could you do me a favour?"
I was in shock because I never expect him to ask a favour from me.
I mean, what can I offer as I am just an intern here?
What more I am a foreign person having limited capabilities to do anything here.
But, I agreed to do him a favour.
And his favour was so simple.
He went like, "can you ask each and every one who passes this guardhouse, 'why do you look so miserable?'. But the two of you [he was referring to me and my housemate], always come in to work with a smile on your face. I come to work smiling all the time as well. Tell them that life is too short to be so miserable."
I laughed at his request at first.
But, I knew what he meant by that.
Life is simply too short to waste on the negative sides.
Too short to focus on being sad and miserable.
Because, a minute past is an opportunity missed.
One moment one could just be talking to you, the next, he might be gone forever.
Perhaps, one should fill his life with more positive things than the bad ones.
In that way, life doesn't have to be so difficult and miserable.
Look at life from a different perspective.
Things will get better eventually.
I am pretty sure there is something in life that makes it worthwhile =)
There will be good times and bad times.
Nobody likes those bad or difficult times.
But bad times won't last forever. They will eventually pass by too.
Take the bad things as lessons.
Take them as blessings to make you stronger as well.
Never give up in life because there are people who are fighting hard to live.
You only have one life. Hence, live life to the fullest.
And you can't buy extra lives at all.
Create positive impacts on the people around you.
Let others remember you for the contributions and the life you lived.
Do what you love in life without harming others.
Just be happy and contented with every little blessing you have.
Because, there are others who are less fortunate than you.
Be nice to people.
After all, life on earth is just temporary.
One day, all of us will leave this world.
Just a matter of time.
Money is not everything. Yes, it can buy you anything you want.
But not everything =)
Money can help you. and destroy you at the same time.
Live moderately.
Don't show off. Stay humble.
After all, at the end of the day, all these are insignificant.
Every one will be equal at the end of the day.
Life goes on.
One bad incident does not mean the end of your life journey.
Get up and keep moving on.
You've gotta keep living. For yourself. For the people around you.
Take care of yourself. Health is the most important.
Don't let things affect your mood easily.
There is so much ahead of you. So much to be accomplished.
So many things to explore.
After all, life is too short.
Take the chances given to you.
Made a mistake in your decision? No worries.
Learn from it, change the situation around.
Be smart to live your life. Be vigilant as well.
Make every day count. Create memories every single day. =)
Love the beautiful and ugly moments in your life.
Be thankful each day for the blessings coming in your way.
Hrmm. I guess that's all from me.
Just a random post.
I was just typing whatever that came into my mind haha xD
So.. 7 weeks left to the end of my internship.
Mixed feelings about this but, I can't wait to be back :)
Till then, cheers!!!
"One call away"
7:12 PM
~Strength~
Sunday, February 21, 2016
"I must be strong,
and carry on,
'Cause I know I don't belong,
Here in heaven"
Tears in Heaven- Eric Clapton
Hello, dear readers!
This is just gonna be a random post where I pour my feelings.
I find it unhealthy to keep things bottled up and needed a space to write down my thoughts somewhere.
Though I know, I have been constantly sharing my feelings with a couple of people as well.
But somehow, having a space to write my thoughts will remind my future self to continue being strong =)
and to see how much I have grown since then.
So, I flew back to the United Kingdom on the 13th of February, 2016 and arrived in London the following day. [Missing Valentine's Day this year. bleks =P]
I was away from work for a month. But, it didn't feel like a month. haha! XD
It was my own decision to fly back on this date after Chinese New Year celebration.
Time was what I needed.
And I had to fly back to complete the remaining weeks of my internship and my project.
Time flew when I was back in Penang. I was caught up with my tasks.
And soon did I know that I am about to fly back to the United Kingdom already.
That one month getaway from work was a therapy to me.
To clear things off my mind by keeping myself busy.
To be with my family members physically and mentally.
To get some breather from everything that has happened.
The supports we have been giving each other have made this healing phase easier.
And also, being back home, I had the opportunity to meet my other half as well.
He has been trying his best to be by my side during my weakest point in life. Bringing me out, pampering me. and giving me endless emotional support.
He made sure I was eating well and taking good care of myself.
He tried every possible way to cheer me up as well =)
So... I have been back to the company for a week now =)
It is my 8th day since I got back here. =)
Mixed feelings ever since I got back here. Sad. Happy. Reluctant. Excited.
Everyone in the team was welcoming me back and it made me feel in place as well.
I'd say, the past week, it was difficult for me.
To be honest, I was emotionally unstable.
There were times, I actually felt that I can no longer continue this internship here.
I even had the thoughts of flying back and ditching this internship.
Sometimes, questions asked by my fellow colleagues made me think back of those times back home and my daddy.
It was difficult. I had to hold my tears sometimes.
I had to show I am strong.
But inside, I am this soft, vulnerable girl.
This place, it haunts me.
Every corner of the house I am living in, it haunts me.
I remember exactly what happened the other day. Every single detail of it.
I am not torturing myself but sometimes, seems like everything here, reminds me of it.
It's just a natural response.
I don't know how to explain to you. But yea, if you were in my shoes, you'd understand.
I've tried every possible ways to push those thoughts away.
But, it is never easy, you see.
Sometimes, looking at the sofa where I sat on during the last time I spoke to my dad replays back the incident.
It's difficult,I admit it.
Being away from my family has made this phase difficult.
Sometimes, I just need emotional supports from people who actually understand what I am going through.
I am not saying that I do not have anybody here. I do have friends here.
But sometimes, family members are who you need during this time.
There were many days I woke up feeling miserable.
To know the fact that things are not the same anymore.
There won't be any "good morning" and "good night" voice clips from him.
I am not able to hear how his day is anymore.
or am I able to tell him what I have for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
And I can no longer hear those three words he always tell me, "Love you, girl".
And there won't be "talk to you tomorrow".
Now, I just tell him everything in my heart and mind.
It has not settled in my mind that he has left us physically.
I miss him terribly.
And I love him very much.
And then I remember.
and been reminded by my housemate.
Of the number of weeks left here. 8 more weeks.
I imagine the last week of being here.
The joy of packing and going back home for good.
I remember my main objectives of being here.
I remember what my dad wished for as well.
For me to complete my internship here.
To travel.
To gain as much experience along the way.
To never let anything hold me back.
I just want him to feel proud of me.
I know daddy lives in my mind and heart.
I know very well he loves me a lot too.
And that he has been very proud of my achievements.
I know he has sacrificed a lot for me and my family.
For us to go this far.
Opportunity to be placed in such prestigious company does not come knocking at everyone's door.
Some wished for it but never obtained it.
But, I was blessed with such opportunity.
And those reasons mentioned above have kept me going.
I know I have to stay strong =)
And things happened for a reason.
Losing someone permanently is a very difficult thing.
This is just a test to me.
Eventually, I will overcome this phase.
Time is what I truly need. =)
Well, guess that's all for my rant.
Just waiting to video call with someone while writing this post haha xD
Till then, cheers!
xx
"Nothing's gonna change my love for you"
7:51 PM
