~In Loving Memory~
Sunday, January 24, 2016
"We keep this love in a photograph,
We made these memories for ourselves.
Where our eyes are never closing,
Hearts were never broke,
Time's forever frozen still"
Photograph-Ed Sheeran
Hello, dear readers!!! :)
As you can see from the title, this post is dedicated to my late father.
To be honest, I am still in shock of the news announced to me.
I was in the United Kingdom when he left us.
And the news was broken to me the moment I arrived Penang.
However, I am really thankful that nobody broke the news to me before I flew back from London.
Otherwise, tears would be flowing from my eyes like waterfall.
The news shocked everyone as well.
Because nobody has ever expected my daddy to depart us so soon.
But I guess, God loved him more. And wanted a good soul like him =)
As most of you know, the relationship I had with my father was something can't be bought with money.
A relationship which nobody can ever describe as well.
He was not only my daddy but my adviser, listener, friend, brother, pillar of support, superman, king and the greatest hero I have ever known in my life.
Those who have known me from primary school, secondary school or college will definitely know what kind of person my daddy is =)
When I knew about his diagnosis, I found it unfair.
I mean, it is a natural human response.
I kept asking myself, of all people, why daddy?
What has daddy done wrong?
I refused to accept the actual fact.
I cried every night. Sometimes, I cried myself to sleep.
I did not know what to do. I was lost.
I tried to be strong in front of him, my mum and my brother.
I looked up for whatever reliable sources so that I could help him.
I started to blame myself for all the wrong doings I have done.
I mean, as children, there are bound to be times we are rebellious.
We may say things we do not mean to each other.
Afterall, we are all just human beings.
I wanted to do more for him.
I wanted to repay for everything he has done for me.
For raising me. For guiding me into the right path.
I wanted him to be proud of me.
To be proud of my achievements.
I wanted to show him that his efforts in raising me did not go to waste.
I want him to be a proud daddy.
Because, I am a proud daughter as I have him as my daddy =)
I told myself that all of these is just a test to me.
God would not have given this challenge to someone who cannot handle it.
Indeed, it was a test to me.
It took me from denial to acceptance.
It was a slow process but yea, I managed to live with the fact eventually.
It made me stronger. It changed my view on certain things.
I have grown matured from it.
Now, I am back to where I start.
In the state of denial.
But, I know I will eventually reach the stage of acceptance.
Time.
My daddy was the most selfless, humble, friendly, caring, loving, patient, forgiving, strong, thoughtful person I have ever known.
I am pretty sure nobody can ever be as heroic as him.
Well, at least for me =)
He is my true hero.
He is the greatest daddy of all =)
He has done so much for me and my family.
He made sure we are well before him.
He was so selfless.
Everything he did was for us.
My daddy was a true fighter.
Even during his last moments.
He never gave up.
He fought during his last few moments just so he could see me one last time through Facebook call.
He was a strong man. He is my true hero.
I cannot imagine what he was going through because, whatever he went through, it was definitely way way way more than what I have been through.
He was the closest to me.
I tell him everything and anything.
We share our thoughts every time as well.
He was the one whom I looked for when it comes to advices.
He was the one who knew whatever problems I was facing.
He knows my stories. Even the little ones.
He used to call me silly for being soft-hearted.
But I know where I get this trait from =P
So, I'd like to reach out to you readers.
Forgive and forget quickly.
Make things up as soon as possible.
Visit your loved ones as much as you can.
Thank them for everything they have done for you.
Love them unconditionally. Show how much you love them. Actions speak louder than words.
Apologise immediately. Hurt less. Lower your ego.
Spend more time with them. Create unforgettable memories.
Have more good times than bad times.
Because, you never know if that will be the last moment with them.
Time is our greatest enemy.
For me, I have no regrets or guilts at all =)
As I have done all those I have stated.
Losing someone is not easy.
Losing someone so important and dear in your life forever is the most difficult.
To be honest, up to today, I cannot believe that my daddy has left us.
It takes time to heal from this phase.
It does not take few days.
This is a big change in my life.
But I believe, time is my only medicine now =)
It is difficult but not impossible.
I know my daddy is still around.
The reason I am saying this is because, I know he lives in us =)
This may sound weird, but whenever I talk to his friends or my family members, I feel his presence.
It's like he lives in them.
He left an impact in each of their lives.
Speaking to them gives me a feeling that he is still around.
I know daddy is in a better place.
A place free of pains and worries.
A happy place.
I know he is somewhere looking after us as well.
I love you, daddy.
I know I say that every day but, you will always be remembered =)
I will always love you regardless of where you are.
You will be truly missed.
And I promise to make you proud.
I will always be your pampered girl =3
I assure you that I will study hard and complete my degree.
Hopefully, I will continue my studies in post-graduate as well =)
I will continue my internship in the United Kingdom as well.
I will carry your name every where, daddy! =)
I will take care of mummy and bro as well.
You do not have to worry anymore.
Han Tiong and I are grown-ups already. =D
We will never let you down daddy.
We want you to be proud of us =)
Thank you for the journey we had together, daddy =)
23 years of unforgettable journey! =D
Thank you for everything daddy. =)
I LOVE YOU, DADDY!!! *mwahx*
Words cannot describe how much I love you. =)
"You'll always be my king=)"
8:06 PM
~2015~
Monday, January 11, 2016
"'Cause if you like the way you look that much
Ohhhh baby you should go and love yourself"
Love yourself-Justin Bieber
Hello!!
So sorry for disappearing for months =P
I wouldn't say that I am too busy to update my blog.
I am just lazy to update it hahaha! xD
After work, I end up feeling so tired.
Even though my tasks in the office are pretty easy and simple.
Anyway! This is an extremely belated post.
I spent my new year holiday in Manchester, Liverpool and Edinburgh.
It was a great holiday getaway for me.
Edinburgh is such a beautiful city during the day and night.
I wish I could share the pictures here but there are just too many =P
In fact, I have not uploaded all the pictures from my camera into my laptop yet! haha xD
And I visited Old Trafford stadium as well!
It was a dream come true because, I was once so into football back then and I was kinda like a huge fan of Manchester United xD
So yea.
I did not have time to update my blog anyway =P
This is just a typical post to recap my 2015~
So.. What can I say about 2015?=)
As with other years, 2015 went by so fast.
In fact, I can't believe that it is 2016 already!
In my mind, I am still living in 2015. haha! xD
My mind has not accepted the fact that it is 2016 already.
When I mention the term "last year", I actually mean 2014.
Owh I am lagging =P
Anyway. So, 2015.
2015 has been a year full of adventures =)
I was able to travel to many places with the loved one and friends.
I'd say that this year breaks the record of the number of places I actually traveled to in a year.
It is a year which has given me so much opportunities in life.
It has given me the chance to fulfill one of my dreams.
To live abroad. What more? In the UK.
It has been an amazing experience so far in this land.
I am indeed blessed and lucky to be able to grasp this opportunity to undergo my internship here.
I have gained so much experience here.
Experience which cannot be bought with money.
2015 is the year I spent wholly with someone special as well =)
I can't believe that it has been more than a year with him.
Time does fly whenever when I am with him.
There were ups and downs in our relationship as well.
But of course, this applies in every relationship =)
He makes me happy all the time.
He is always there for me in my weakest hours.
Always giving me love and care whenever I need them hehe. =3
And I am truly blessed to have met him in this journey =)
My third year in UTP went well, I suppose.
No dramas, no issues. Nothing much exciting to talk about =P
Just a little disappointed in my second semester in my third year.
But, it is already in the past ;D
2015 has taught me to be stronger as well.
How I should slowly accept things the way they are and not questioning too much and complicating the situation.
And it has also taught me how to handle things in a calmly manner.
Though at times, I still get easily flustered when things don't go the way they should be =P
Well, that's my nature I guess? haha xD
Spending a quarter of the year in a foreign land makes me homesick more than ever before.
Makes me wanna be back home with my family, friends and the loved one.
I realised how little celebrations actually matter when I am here.
Back home, small celebrations seem normal to me.
But, when I am here, even the smallest celebration makes me wanna be with the people back home.
It feels like I am missing out in a section of their lives.
Missing the food, environment, love, warmth.
But yea, I am not complaining at all =) Although it's kinda like a love-hate thing.
Love the people and experience, hate the weather =P
I guess it's actually the weather that makes me depressed at times.
It gets dark way too early! and the sun rises way too late!
Anyway...
This is a once in a lifetime opportunity.
For me to explore into a new adventure.
I am taking this as a test ;D
I am actually blessed as I have the other amazing interns here with me.
Who are always there for me.
They are my family here =)
They are the people whom I seek first whenever I have a problem here.
They do decrease homesickness here. haha XD
2015 has been an eye-opener to me as well.
I definitely changed my views on people. In a good and bad way. haha XD
Not to be too naive and learnt to protect my own feelings.
How I should let go of insignificant things and not make a big fuss about it.
Hrm. I do not know what else to blog about to be honest haha xD
2015 went by too fast that I can't seem to recollect everything that has happened =P
But, I'd definitely say that 2015 is the year which I travelled most and gained a lot of experience along the way =D
So! I am welcoming 2016 with a positive mindset as usual.
2016 is my final year in UTP.
I hope that everything goes well during this year! =D
I can't wait to graduate!!
Hoping that 2016 will bring more joy, laughter, experience and memories!
And I hope to become a better person to my family, friends and special one as well =)
I hope to strive harder for a healthier lifestyle ;D
And I will definitely cherish every single moment =)
I will definitely strive hard in everything I do.
And have faith in God that everything will go well.
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016!!!
I guess, that's all for now! =D
Cheers!! Bye!!
"This is driving me crazy"
2:15 AM
About The Blogger♠
Her name is
Li Ean.
This shall be her
short and sweet introduction.
These are the
little things that make her world go round.
Good morning texts. Pretty dresses. Cute shoes. Warm cappucino. Pretty bags. Swimming. Laughters. Family. Friends. Hearing Her Favorite Songs on the Radio. Cuddling In Bed When It’s Raining Outside. Crushes. Wang Lee Hom. Good Books. Jokes. Never ending Conversations Late At Night. The Beach. Party. Starbucks. Silly Faces. Laughing So Hard Her Stomach Hurts. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. Just plain laughing. Warm Hugs. Waking Up and Realizing You Still have A Few Hours Left To Sleep. Waking Up Knowing It’s A Weekend. Socializing And Making Friends. Spending Time With Close Friends. Playing With Puppies. Playing With Babies. Nephew. Great People. Hot chocolate. Road Trips With Friends and Family. Holding Hands. Back Hugs XD . Sleep. Late Night Stroll =) Good Food. Smiles. Sports Car. Photography. Drawing =)
First cried on
12th Of June,1993 You do the math on my age..=P
#Gemini #
# A Proud Penangite#
#A Dream Chaser#
#UTP-ian! =) #
#A Chemical Engineering Student #
#Just An Ordinary Girl#
#Living in a Simple and Humble Life#
#Stubborn At Times#
Loves:
~ GOD
~ Family and Friends
~To Be Acknowledged for Who I Am
~Puppies
~ Tea!!!
~ Blue
~ Chicken XD
Hates:
~Backstabbers, Fakers, Cheaters, Liars.
~ Being Sad =(
~ Being Hurt
~ Beancurd =P
Favourite Quote :
I May Not Have The Best Of Everything, But I Make The Best Of Everything I Have ♥
Wanna know me more? Feel free to ask~=)
