~Forgiveness~
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
"And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me—I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am"
Thinking out loud- Ed Sheeran
Hellow! =D
So here I am. blogging again ;D
So it's gonna be a random post.
And I am just gonna type out whatever thoughts that come out randomly ;D
Today, I am blogging about forgiveness =)
You see. We, humans, make mistakes all the time..
And I guess, it takes one's courage to say "sorry" sincerely.
Well, I personally like this scene =) The harder it is to say "sorry", the more meaningful it is.
Why? Because it simply shows how much you really care and how much you reflect yourself after a wrong doing.
It shows your sincerity and you know you are wrong.
That's what I personally think. Because, somehow, nowadays, from what I've been observing [chehh as if I am a pro =P] , people tend to say "sorry" so easily that it has lost its real message.
I am not saying that it's wrong to say sorry immediately after you've done something wrong.
But, it depends on the situation =) How light it is or how serious it is.
Imagine if you've done something real bad, and you say sorry after a while. I guess, it will just arouse anger in the other party even more. Give it time. Let both parties cool off first. Reflect, and then say sorry meaningfully. Let both parties engage in a calmer state of mind first.
And of course, imagine if you accidentally push someone when you're on the way to somewhere, just immediately say sorry =P because if you don't, yea the person would be pretty mad.
Again, it depends on the situation. And it's up to you to judge =)
Besides that, I would also like to point out that, forgive and forget quickly.
Life's too short to hold onto grudges. Or to hold onto regrets.
Make more friends than enemies.
You don't want to live a life surrounded by people you hate or people who hate you right?
Because it will just give you negative energy.
Live a peaceful life.
People make mistakes. I make mistakes. I make TONNES of mistakes. Sometimes I wish I can undo them and to not admit that I was the one who made them.
But, mistakes are what make us who we are today. Life's a learning journey.
We mature each day. The more we learn, the wiser we are.
We learn from mistakes. And we tell ourselves not to repeat the same mistakes again or we will face the consequences and pay for the price.
And nobody's gonna blame you for your mistakes [unless of course, if you keep doing the same mistakes then you are just asking for troubles lol]. It's a natural thing if we make mistakes.
For those who judge you based on your past and mistakes or discriminate you or isolate you, ignore them.
As if they are so perfect. They do not worth a single second of your life. They are nobody but a bunch of low-mentality people.
Who are they to judge you? Nobody has the rights to judge you. Only God has the rights.
Nobody's perfect. We are all born imperfect. And it's the imperfections that make us perfect for who we are. =D
Again, forgive easily, and forget quickly. Everyone deserves second chances.
We don't have all the time in the world. =)
Never hold onto grudges.
It brings nothing but depression, and probably health problems.
Cherish the people around you. Live the present. Screw the past ;D
Who cares about the past? There's no such thing as a perfect life.
There's bound to be ups and downs in life. We have dark past. But that does not mean you don't deserve a brighter present or future right?=D
Also, channel all those negative energy to positive energy =)
Use that energy in doing something useful.
Like how you can be a better person. or how you want to put the energy on someone.
I guess that's all for now.
Wanna drown myself in my novels weee! XD
Thanks for reading ;D
Bye!!
" I miss you so much "
2:22 PM
~Death~
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Greetings earthlings! :D
I am back to blogging. Woohooo~
So recently, I went to a 3-days Engineering Industry Boot Camp at Sains@USM since I had nothing better to do at home =P
So I thought, why not. Get some air, learn something, meet new people.
And yeap I did. haha xD
Although at first I was so reluctant to go because that camp is more to electronic stuffs which I have no basics about.
But yea. I learnt from that camp =)
Although I did nothing much but cutting papers and cardboard for my fellow teammates to build a house =P
I was so useless there.
But, I learnt about embedded system. Something I never learnt or seen before. It was a good exposure.
And also it was a good experience that I met people from different universities =D
Great and friendly people.
I had fun. and also free food =P
So... back to the title of this post..
Death..
is always associated to sadness and fear..
But come to think about it, everyone who lives will eventually die.
There's no such thing as being immortal. if so, the earth would be so overcrowded..
I guess we feel sad over someone's death because he/she will no longer be here for us..You won't be able to see or talk to that that particular person anymore.
However, death ends a life. not a relationship.
He/she may not be physically here, but I am pretty sure he/she stays somewhere close to you in your heart or mind..
He/she is not entirely gone forever you see.
There are still fond memories of him/her ..
Life goes on after a certain someone's death. Mourning is okay..It shows that you are normal.
But, sometimes, we just have to move on and face what the future is about to throw to us. Don't hold onto something that is already lost.
Cherish all those memories you had with them. Keep them safe with you.
Think of all those good things you had with them =) Think of all those positive things. The great impact they left you with.
Think of it as a positive thing.
You had your time with them. They were part of your life ;D
Hrm. and we also fear death..
I used to be so afraid of death.
Like I haven't "lived" enough.
Or I haven't done enough during my living days on Earth.
Yeap.. to be honest, till today, I am still afraid of death.
I am afraid that the day would come. And the people who I will leave behind.
And weather have I left a great impact to the people around me.
Have I done enough? Have I lived my life to the fullest?
Did I enjoy every single moment? Did I learn from my mistakes?Or just feel sorry for myself for making stupid mistakes?
Mistakes made me who I am today. =)
Have I led my life meaningfully?
Have I filled my life with more happy moments than sad ones?
Did I hurt more people than loving people?
So, why do we fear death? Probably because we feel that we haven't seen or done enough.
I personally feel that way now. Yeap, it's true that I have not seen the world enough. There are a lot of things to explore. A lot of things to learn.
And true enough, I have not done enough. There are many ways which I can contribute to the people around..
or probably the fact that we still have to mend our mistakes =)
or probably we feel that it's just not the right time..
or probable we fear of the thoughts of leaving the people who meant a lot behind..
or probably we fear of what is waiting for us in the afterlife [applies differently based on religions ;D]
Hrm. one of my goals in my life is to be remembered even after I am gone.
I know it sounds a lil' weird coming from me. But yea. I want to be remembered for my existence. As in the positive way. How I impact people.
I knowww.. it may sound silly and all, but yea. that's one of my goals. =)
I want to help out as much as I can and also feel the sense satisfaction from that. I want to be able to impact people's lives in a positive manner.
Sometimes, death isn't so scary when you know when you are about to die.
When you are struck with a terminal disease.
You appreciate your life more. You know every second counts.
You tend to look at life in a different way.
And you will take life differently. Do things differently. See things in a different perspective.
You grab every single chance possible. You tend to be happier because you know that death is approaching.
But then again, doesn't it apply to everyone of us? We are all dying too. Just we don't know when is "that time" ..
Ahh. I dunno what else to write :P
all these are my random thoughts after reading a book.
Now I see death in a different perspective.
Well, when there's a life, there's a death right?=)
Why is it a bad thing? It's a natural thing. People live, people die.
It's a circle of life.
Enjoy every single moment. Regrets won't bring you anywhere. It brings sadness and depression.
Embrace the moment. Take chances. Be bold and brave. =)
Make this life worth! =D
Till then. bye~!! =D
"I love you? =)"
11:46 PM
~Second Year, 2014 (Part 2)
Monday, October 13, 2014
You asked for reasons.
And, I could not give you even one.=)
First of all, I would like to apologise for posting this a week late.
I was so caught up with hanging out with friends and family and event stuffs =P
So here's the second part of my second year as a Chemical Engineering student as I promised ;D
June, 2014
June is always my favourite month becauseeee =P My birthday falls on this month XD
1) 12th June, 2014! The day I finally turned 21! =D But I was so caught up with Euphonious so my birthday wasn't as big as last year. However, I was so blessed to have wonderful people around me who wished me and also threw a surprise for me at Chancellor Hall despite us being so busy with Euphonious =')
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| First time ever got a rainbow cake XD It was not bad. Got this at 12am. |
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| The cakes I got from The Wira Gang!! Love you guys to bits! |
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| The Wira Gang who came all the way to CH and also lied to me on why they were at CH since they weren't supposed to be there=P |
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| My key from daddy =P |
2) 12th,13th and 14th June, 2014. Euphonious 2014!!! =D It was awesome! I met Paperplane Pursuit!!! *fangirling* In case you don't know them, they are the ones who sing "Beat of Your Love". And they are Malaysians!!! Google them if you wanna know more about them! =D I went out for supper with them too after the event. KYAAAAA XD I also met Bunkface. OMGOSH. Sam is so good looking. I died.....
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| John O. of Paperplane Pursuit!!! |
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| Andrew Yap of Paperplane Pursuit with Jethro (my HOD) and Nab! =D |
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| BUNKFACE. *died* |
oh yeaa...I was the back stage manager so I had the chance to be the first few ones to be up close to Bunkface XD
3) Ellyn's birthday! =D My partner! hahaha XD went out for Sushi Bonanza. slurrp!!
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| Yea. Call us monsters =/ |
July, 2014
To be honest, July was kinda a rough month too. That's because my grandma passed away. And until today, I somehow feel that she's still here with us. It's hard to accept the fact that she's gone forever. I do miss her every now and then. I'm gonna miss her cooking, her sambal. and also the fact that CNY is never gonna be the same. I wish I could have done more. And somehow, should have gotten closer to her. But yea, distance and time were our enemies..
On a lighter note.....
1) XEB(X-treme Engineering Battle) 2014! =D This event was under AIChE. It was fun organizing this event. We had to come up with games and also I could play all the games before the participants do =P And after the event, we had our appreciation dinner. Buffet at this Phaty Cafe in Seri Iskandar. Awesome dinner. So satisfying. XD
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| How can I not love this girl ? =) |
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| With my PD for XEB 2014 :D |
2) Nabila's birthday! =D Surprised her at 12am by splashing a bucket of water at her =P went out for dinner at this buffet restaurant called Shabu Shabu to celebrate her birthday. It was sooooooo good and worth it! =D
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| With the birthday girl! =D |
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| Group picture! =D |
3) Went clubbing for the first time ever for Sam's birthday celebration at SOS in Ipoh. Hrm. My experience from clubbing? haha xD mixed feelings. it was quite fun because of the musics and err dancing. but to be honest, I think I am the type of person who doesn't enjoy crowded places. So yea, it's a love-hate kind of thing. Would I go again? If I have a bunch of great friends who are going, probably.
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| Supper after clubbing XD |
August, 2014
Most of the days in this month were spent preparing for finals and project. So yea. Not much pictures though ;D
1) Sepro Project that we were all so clueless about and somehow we managed to come up with something so pretty that we did not want to hand in hahaha XD
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| Adsorption Column hahaha xD #WhataCEdoes |
2) UOL 1 group poster presentation. To be honest, until today, I have no idea what the poster presentation is about. But, doesn't really matter. It's over and I don't wanna see or think about it anymore XD
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| My group for UOL =D |
3) Studying in common room. that always ended with vaining sessions =P
Hrm. I've gotta say August is a crazy month for me. Haha xD Certain things happened too quickly. and to be honest, hahaha xD I was really blur during that phase. BUT, somehow I am glad they happened =) It felt as if, everything was falling into the right place.The moments I had made me happy and appreciated. Especially during finals when I needed to destress most. Thank you XD
September, 2014
1) Went to Tambun after our final paper (It was HSE btw. pfft) !!! Hotspring! It was sooooo good to pamper ourselves after stressful weeks. Came back around 1 something in the morning I guess?And walked around my village till 4am I guess. wee~XD
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| Went to Elnegra for dinner before Tambun~ |
6:25 PM
~Second Year, 2014 (Part 1)~
Friday, October 3, 2014
It's scary how time flies.
And this whole process of growing up is difficult to catch up.
Greetings, earthlings!
Yesh, I am back blogging.
I have so much to write but I just can't find the right time or mood to write them down D=
I finally have the time and mood to write this post. heh heh XD
So, today I am gonna blog about my journey as a second year Chemical Engineering student~
To be honest, I cannot believe I actually completed my second year already.
Those two semesters went by like bullet train D=
I would say that 2nd year is really tough.
I had so much difficulties to get through it. and I would like to thank God for guiding me along this path.
I had so many stressful moments.
And there were also moments where by I was so tired, hopeless and out of spirits and motivation.
Too many things to understand and catch up, too little time.
I was always caught up with assignments, quizzes, tests, events.
And 2nd year 1st semester was the worst semester ever.
UTP decided to remove midsem break during that semester.
Hence, course plannings for all subjects went hay-wired.
Most of my tests were pushed back to near finals. And, we hardly had time to prepare for finals D=
I struggled so much before finals and was so sleep deprived.
Tea was my best companion that time. Yea, tea keeps me awake ;D
2nd year 2nd semester wasn't that bad. I felt at least prepared. not 100% though. But, at least, I felt better and calmer in sitting for finals.
Everything was well planned for this semester and I was really thankful for that. At least I could keep track of the subjects and had adequate time to cover the syllabus before finals. Although the subjects were killers.
and some lecturers were... well... "unique" hahaha XD
Okays. So now, I am gonna go through some events that happened during my second year in UTP in chronological order . In terms of months =D and through pictures. Let pictures do the talking. Too lazy to type them out =P
Let me take you on a ride through this bittersweet journey. =)
I am gonna split it to two parts. Here's the first part. Which is the first half of 2nd year =D
January, 2014
Got back to university a week later after classes commenced =P ['Cause i am cool like that XD]
And I still remember that I had dinner with The Wira gang after I arrived. Owh, my family dropped me back to university ;D
1) Lost world of tambun with the girls! =D Such a great day at the water park. and shopping afterwards =P
2) Random mask session XD
February, 2014
1) First presentation in UTP for PCS! woohoo. and it was a group presentation!
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| Nabila! The girl from CGL! Penang girl! |
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| My Awesome Group for PCS group presentation :D |
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| Formal Attire. Ignore my face XD |
2) Valentine's day with the girls (Ellyn, Jess, Sen).. Single ladies' day out with Sam and his friends XD Went to Eurohouse. Food was good !
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| Spaghetti Carbonara from Eurohouse. This is so good! | | |
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| First flower ever received in my life HAHAHA. From Sen ;D |
3) ICC Family Day
Yeap I was in ICC too XD I am kinda inactive in this club though =X
March, 2014
1) Camping for our RnA! =D Of Taiping Zoo, hiking, survival skills and... marshmallows =P
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| My group for RnA |
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| Girls I can't live without =) |
2) Random yoghurt session with the girls from my class ;D
3) Penang outing with some of my university friends! =D Of Penang Hill, Interactive Museum, Beach and Makan2!!
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| Penang Hill |
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| Coffee with Lim Guan Eng ;D |
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| With my bro ;D Samuel Beh |
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| The ones who came to Penang! =) |
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| With my roommate, Jess! =D |
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| Random Car Selfie 1 |
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| Random Car Selfie 2 |
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| Taken at Sip n Chew |
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| The beach!! |
4) Chexposium Chemical Engineering Challenge 2014~ Managed to achieve 3rd placing XD I was quite surprised with our achievement =P
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| My Awesome Team for This Challenge ;D |
5) IEM Family Day
April, 2014
1) AIChE's Workshop and Talk =D
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| With Mr Chan Wenzhen. Ex-UTPian and an inspiring leader and speaker |
1) Study group with The Wira gang for finals! =D
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| Vained a lil when studying for finals in common room =P |
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| Camwhored in the library the day before programming finals with my partner in crime :* |
I gotta say that this month is the most difficult moment of my life ever. Finals was one thing I had to go through as I was so sleep deprived and stressed out. But things got very rocky after finals. I spent most of the days in this month crying to sleep. Yea. I had so much to go through. I had too much to handle and juggle. Too much information to absorb and accept. I could not even sleep well despite the desperate need to sleep. I was mentally and physically exhausted. To be honest, I could not even concentrate in my studies because my mind was elsewhere. I would say that this month is probably the worst and saddest moment of my life. Prayers were my silent remedies and treatments. Hopes were my only motivation. So yea, I am still fighting it till today. And I am trying to be strong too and put it behind my head. And it seems like the wound is slowly healing.
Hurm. I guess that's all for now.
Stay tuned for the second part! =D
Gotta sleep now XD
Bye!!
"Gotta stay stronger than a diamond"
12:55 AM
