~8 days~
Saturday, September 29, 2012
AHH!
mixed feelings!
I hope I can pull through.
8 more days. Am I ready for my Uni life?:(
I am not excited as I used to be T_Tright now, I am more afraid than excited :(
12:45 AM
~Time~
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
There's no running away ~
Just the matter of time~
Hello~ :D sorry for disappearing so long~ :P
Been so busy with so many things. rushing here and there @_@
and I didnt realise it's September already.
So yea. I'm sure you readers think that I am already in University now.
As I stated in previous posts, I was supposed to go for my intake on the 28th of August.
But, it is already September and I am still in Penang =P
Anyway, I can't run away from making decisions for my future. I cant just miss one intake after another.
I actually rejected a scholarship in a university. Okays~ Some of you might think it's a stupid decision. But to be honest, I was kinda happy and sad about it =P
I was happy because I dont have to force myself to study in a university that isnt not of my choice. I know. I shouldnt have applied if I didnt want XD
But, my parents actually asked me to apply all since I have nothing to lose. =)
When the date was approaching to 28th August, fear started to overcome my heart.
Weird eh? I know I should feel excited about it, but as the date got closer, I felt so insecured and scared. Instead of feeling happy to start a new chapter of my life. It was as if I didnt wanna move forward.
I wasnt even excited. I didnt even look for accomodations and things like that.
I was hoping that I could just avoid the whole intake.
There were a few reasons I felt so insecured about the university.
[I am not mocking the university :) this is just based on my personality. different people will have different thinkings. but, for me, little thing counts XD yes. i am such a horrible person :P ]
Firstly, they didnt give me a good first impression. blehh XD this might be irrelevant to most of you. Maybe I am unlucky or what. XD But, I am a customer. I was left an hour unattended.=.= what a service. and in the end, I didnt get to meet with the person I wanted to meet. But was entertained by a student who doesnt really know much about the procedures.
Secondly, they couldnt answer whatever questions I threw. When I asked for A, they gave me some answers not relating to A. ~.~ and I couldnt build my confidence in that university itself @_@. I actually asked a few times. XD
Thirdly, I didnt quite like the environment of the uni there. very congested. too many people. make me feel suffocated . that kind of feeling.. okays this doesnt apply to most people. XD just that, I prefer a quiet and peaceful environment for my studies :P
Fourthly, my course is kinda new in that University. okays previously they had some partnership with some UK university. but this year, they just got their first batch of graduates . Meaning, it's quite new in a sense that, they started conducting this course by themselves recently. A little doubtful about that. unless if it has been like 10 years or so then ok lar. XD And they just earned their accreditation from EAC. Not much of an importance in my course, but I want it too XD best to have it :D
Fiftly, probably because it's of the employment rate as compared to other universities that have my course. It's kinda like an important thing. but then again, it depends on individuals to impress the company through interviews :D not much to say about that.
these are just my opinions based on my personalities. So, dont get me wrong =) I am not saying bad things about the university. but, maybe because I am unlucky to meet these little things lar.. This doesnt apply to anyone :D so peace yea~~ :D
Yes. I was foolish enough to let my dad pay the RM400 registration fees.
So freaking expensive =.=
But I cant get back the rm 400 anyway.. =( feel kinda sad to let the rm400 away T_T I feel a very guilty towards my dad =(
Anyway, I was sad because, dang XD it was a scholarship and I rejected it.
Most people want it and cant get it. and me, I got the chance and I let go.
But, it's okay :) I am glad I made that decision. I feel happier this way :D
So yea. these two months is really a bumpy ride =)
Got my results on the 13th of August.
I was very happy with my results. Was more than I expected XD I was really thankful for that. :)
And in August, I was having a very hectic life.
Been travelling back and forth to KL to settle my university stuffs.
I was actually at disadvantage because I decided to reject my scholarship at the end of july.
Just when UTP closed their registration. so :( kinda regretted for not making my decision quick .
Anyway, not sure if I can actually apply with forecast results. Over ad lar :D
I cannot do anything already but to move on :)
Hurm. Just wanna express my disappointment.
Let's just say that, I should have taken all the opportunities instead of lying on one only =)
That's my biggest mistake lar.
I was so sure I was going to take up the scholarship and I actually blocked out other options.
That's one thing I regret lar..
But then again, God was kind enough to give me a second chance to study in a university who was once my number 1 choice XD
I was in a dilemma in August and September. I couldnt make up my mind.
I just needed someone to slap me in the face and tell me, "just go for that" XD
but yea. nobody did that :P everyone was like giving me advices. so yea. kinda thankful for that too :)
I was torn between University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus (UNMC) and UTAR. [P/S= I was already late for UTP. if not UTP was also in the list]
there are pros and cons for both the universities.
I actually wanted UNMC so much. I would do anything for it. But, I am just afraid I cant handle it halfway and it would really affect my time and future.
UNMC is basically more recognised in engineering as compared to UTAR.
and UNMC is basically more equipped as compared to UTAR.
That is why UNMC was my first choice. However, I couldnt find scholarships because of wrong timing.
My results came out late and most of the scholarships are closed already.
The fees for UNMC is a killer. maybe because it is an engineering course :) so I dont blame them. As for other courses, they are relatively cheap :)
So yea... kinda let go of that dream and settle for another cheaper option :)
I have made my choice to study my degree in UTAR. and hopefully, to get a transfer to UTP [if it is possible :D]
UTAR is not bad. but as compared to UNMC, of course UNMC is much higher than UTAR.
However, I should be contented that I am able to proceed my degree as compared to others who dont have a chance.
UTAR is so much cheaper as compared to UNMC. probably 3 times cheaper :P
Yes. I was sad, insecured, doubtful when I made my decision to go for UTAR.
But then again, that is just so immatured. Afterall, to really excel in studies, it depends mostly on individuals. University plays a part. but the bigger part lies on individuals =)
Yea. I may not have the best equipments although those are important in my practicals. But that doesnt mean that the equipments are not sufficient until I cannot practice what I need to.
Just that, maybe my equipments are not so advanced as compared to UNMC.
and experience wise, probably not the same as UNMC :)
But then again, as an engineer, experience is gained through the outside world mostly. So yea. :D
If I have a chance to go for UNMC, I'd definitely go for that instead of UTAR.
But then, due to my current position , UTAR seems to be the best choice =)
And I am kinda happy with that too.
So yea. I realised that and I decided to give it a try in UTAR. afterall, UTAR is also a good university and I can have a job once I graduate.
Isnt that what is important? XD
And then again. I think of my dad. I dont want to burden him with such heavy expenses on my degree if I were to go for UNMC.[even with loans]
I have a brother who will be taking his degree soon~ It'd be unfair if I take my brother's fund for my degree.
might as well I save now, and proceed for my masters somewhere else?=)
It was already bad for me to reject the scholarship in UCSI. if not, my dad doesnt have to worry much about my expenses in degree anymore.
But what's done is done. And I hope I have made the right decision..
I hope I can pull it through :)
So yea. to keep you guys updated .
My registration to UTAR is on the 7th of October. 15th is when my classes start already. sooooo. I really hope everything goes well.
I will keep on praying :)
I am so worried of so many things.
basically, it's the fact that I am living alone.
I got a room. and I am moving in together with my friend, Ezri :D
Kinda happy to have someone to move in together :) At least I wont feel so alone.
Housemates seem nice. But, I havent really talked to them yet XD so yea :p
The fact that I am leaving my home for my degree is what tears me apart.
Cant I do it in Penang?:P
I feel so heavy hearted to leave penang. I wish I can stay here longer.
Time went by so fast since the end of my exams.
June, July, August, September. 4 months.
4 months dont seem enough for me to spend time with my family =(
I was always out. travelling here and there. I wish I can do something to get back those times :'(
I am so afraid of living alone.
I cant be away from my dad, mum and brother. I mean, I've been seeing them almost every single day of my life..
And now suddenly, few weeks once. :(
Especially my dad and mum. T_T
I just want them around me.I just wanna see them everyday. Not that I want them to take care of me. But I just want them around =(
uwaaa. I dont want T_T can i ask them to move in with me too? XD
Ahh! okays :P over the emo part d..
nevertheless, I am quite excited , happy, nervous, scared, sad, insecured to go for my degree in UTAR. hope everything goes well :)
This shall be a new experience :D
4 years. fuhh~ so darn long =P
3 years seem short, 4 years seem long to me XD weird eh?
difference of one year only :P
I really will pray hard. ..
sorry for the long post :P
CHeers~~
2:09 AM
