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Friday, July 27, 2012
wow. i've been reading my past posts and i realised that I was so harsh O.O
I am really sorry for being vulgar on my blog.
I hope I am not like that now =)
I'll change to be a better person XD
and afterall, blog is where I pour my feelings.
Mostly, when it's about anger =P
I mean. haha xD when i am happy, I dont think I have the time to type everything. I'm just gonna play back those memories if they are happy ones XD
when it comes to anger, I guess I need space to pour everything.
Owh well. really sorry for my vulgarity in my blog last time =P
I didnt mean it. and I hope, it doesnt change your thoughts on me =D
I am sincerely sorry ^^
Owh and I just realised that most of my posts are emo.=.=
Blehhh~~ I was so..... =.= I should facepalm myself XD
I'm trully sorry for all the emo posts XD
I guess that time I couldnt pour anywhere and blog seemed to be the best place to pour .
So for all those, I am really sorry =)
From now on, I am gonna post things that are worth reading ;D
1:54 AM
random
fuhh.
tall, dark and handsome XD
ideal guy to me XD
yesh. another random post =P
dont mind me alright? haha xD
anyway. sometimes I wonder, why am I the only one among them that doesnt have that other half? =P
the rest already have loving and sweet boyfriends=P
sometimes, I do get jealous. XD I wanna be at that exact position as them..
I wanna feel love again.
Nevertheless, sometimes, when I look at them, my heart feels calmer.
I am happy to see them happy =) I am glad that their other halves treat them right. I am thankful for that.
Yes. Last year was a big mistake. and yes, i was stupid =P
Perhaps, my mind wasnt right. If I could, I would turn back time and undo all my mistakes =P
I know. =P
I have people around me who love me for who I am. I am really thankful for that. =) I am happy to have all these people in my life who stand by me through all my pains and sorrows =)
People can never be satisfied XD
Yes, I am contented with my life now.But then again, it'd be great if it's really completed =P
My life is almost completed. I dont wish for a complicated life. I am more than happy with a simple one =D
Sometimes, I am curious how does my other half look like XD
When will I meet him? =P How are his personalities?
Is he short? XD Is he handsome?=P Caring boh? haha xD Romantic or not?=P
Owh well. I guess God is still busy writing my story XD
So, I'll just patiently wait =D
No hurry. =) and of course, I am not ready for any relationships at all.
I'm afraid of commitments. I'm afraid if he doesnt understand me.
AND. I swore to myself to never get involved in relationship until I turn 20 =P
Silly swear I know. hahha XD
okays, maybe most of you will think I am childish,immatured but to me, it's not =P
I am 19 this year. I just wanna stay single during my last year of being a teen. you know, to clear my mind. to trully understand myself =D and also, to have some fun =P [like larh there's someone who wants me. blehhhh xD]
and try to be more matured than the teenager me before I turn 20 =P
Okays. childish I know. pffttttt XD
I mean. I am a very silly teenager. I make silly mistakes and I dont wish to do something silly during my last teenage year so that I wont regret in the future.
I mean, I am the type of person who isnt sure if my thinkings and feelings would change in the future.
So yea, better be cautious than regretting in the future. =P
When I'm 20, I want to be an adult. I want to be able to know what's the right decision for me =D
AHH XD I am done crapping. sorry for the crappy post. Sorry for the time =P
and also, thanks for reading this crappy post XD
till then, chao!! :D
xx
12:48 AM
and it goes on~
Thursday, July 26, 2012
I pray no tears in your dreams.
Hello =D
Yes, so sorry for disappearing=P
Just dont have to blog sometimes. so yea. I am bored now.
Cant seem to play Cabal because I leave my character to sell things. I need to clear my inventory T_T
Anyway. Hurm. Just gonna randomly pour my thoughts since I have nothing to do.
I want to watch my korean drama. but, my brother is watching tv. owh well. I'll watch later I guess?=P
Owh yea. I strongly recommend you readers to watch "Protect the Boss"
Yes.. it's a korean drama =P But, I guess, it's really the type of drama I love to watch.
It's a mixture of romance and comedy. Really nice =D
Love the actors and actresses. Really addictive =P and not boring at all.
At least, not cheesy like some korean dramas =X
So yea. This morning I received the official letter from my university.
Bittersweet I guess.
I have to go down to KL before 28th August. My orientation starts on the 28th.
Suddenly, I am back to reality. These two months, I didnt bother about the time and also, what's going on around me. All I cared about was fun.
Played all day. Watched tv whenever I feel like to. Been so lazy.
Lost track of time ~ Sigh. And that letter, really brought my back to reality.
I cant be always playing and lazing around at home.
I need to achieve my dreams. Something I wanted since form 4.
But then again, I am afraid. I'm afraid of so many things.
Will I be independant?Will I be able to take care of myself?
Will I be alright?
My friends keep assuring me that everything is gonna be alright once I am there. Just go with the flow. and they keep telling me I am gonna have lots of fun in univesity.
But, sigh. Maybe because I am lack of confidence. in myself.
Am i making the right choice? Is this the right course for me?
Once I am university, I need to be serious already. Am I ready for that?
I dunno if I can let go of certain things.
AHH I am so afraid.
I really need guidance. I really need someoneT_T
I am not as strong as many think I am. =(
Classes start on the 3rd of September.
Sigh. So I am gonna be a student again. Back to studies. T_T
I am afraid T_T can I stay in Penang? I just want to be in Penang.
At least, I feel secured.
Anyway, put that aside =)
Going out with them tomorrow to gurney. Gonna clear my mind just for a while =D
Sorry for rambling =P Yesh XD my blog has become an emo blog.=p
well, just temporary ok?=P
Till then, chao! =D
4:09 PM
~updates! ~
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
hey all :D
so sorry for no updates
been so lazy after my external =P
anyway, results are gonna be out on the 13th of August.
Mixed feelings =/ excited, nervous, sad...
Recently, Sharyn the piggy came back to penang!! =D had a lot of fun with her.
great talks with her too :D missing her like mad now T_T
I went to KL with a few of my friends =D
Sharyn, Swee Hon, Rachel and Joshua. it was fun !=P
especially in Sunway Lagoon~ But after the swim and slides, I was so tired.
So sorry to all that I wasnt really myself after Sunway Lagoon. Was really really tired , sleepy and in pain T_T
yea. my feet were killing me T___T
check out the pictures we took in KL through my Facebook =D
Hurm. and also, I am a little afraid to go for my degree course.
I guess I am afraid of being alone there =(
I'll be going to KL for my degree in September.
TO be honest, I am not ready yet. I feel like I am still a kid.
I want to be under my parents' care all the time. okays, I am selfish.
Maybe because I am scared of growing up.
I am afraid that I cant adapt well in a foreign place with no one I know in my campus.
It's gonna be difficult. More difficult than how I was in KDU.
At least, during my orientation period, I had a few of my schoolmates.
I didnt feel so, foreign at all?
Now, I am gonna be alone. in the campus. and what more. I'll be living in a hostel.
I'm afraid I cant meet people I can get along well with,
although I am not so choosy when it comes to friends.
Anyway, just gonna pray for the best =)
Hope everything goes well. Hope my life is gonna full with adventures =)
Owh yea. Just so you know .
I failed all my plans on what to do during my break XD
I've been playing cabal everyday. PFFT XD
and also, been watching a lot of TV. there goes my eyesight =p
Ahh~ I dunno what else to update.=P
so that's all for now~ byebye :D
10:51 PM