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yesh. i am updating this not because I have updates.

but I just need to pour things.

tomorrow is MPW finals.

pfft. I am not even excited for it.

it's freaking history.

I cant remember my own history and you expect me to understand other's histories?=P

ok. back to the real thing..

i think. it has been three weeks things have been going on really weird for me.

I try not to overthink.

Stress. Pressure. Studies. Lack of confidence.Running out of time. Trial.

Neighbours have been really..b*tchy these days.

Renovations. Quarrels. Child abuse.

Everyday, there will be someone screaming, shouting, cursing.

Yesh. It has been weeks.

I cant take this environment anymore. I think I will go crazy if I were to go on like this.

I have my own life, my own problems. I have a very very tough time here already.

and you guys dont have to create more problems over silly things.

Be a little considerate. 

I really wanna leave this place.

I want a quiet environment.

I dont want my future to be affected by you guys.

Try being in my situation. And you would know how tough is the phase I am going through.

This is not a game. It's not like. you guys can screw my life and I can give it another try next time. No. it's not like that.

If you guys do screw it up, I will miss an opportunity. Time wasted.

Energy wasted. Money gone to waste.

I am not being selfish.

I know I should just ignore. 

But, I have been ignoring so much, it comes to the break off point.

I have been tolerating for so long.

and tolerance has its limits too.

This neighbourhood is shared by all. Not by an individual.

OK. maybe I am exaggerating. maybe i am feeling this way because I am under stress..

But, think of it this way.

When you are already having a bad time, you try to be strong.

You try to ignore every single thing that gets into your way. 

You stay positive.

You try to overcome every single obstacle. but, at one point...

a small matter will cause a great effect on you. And, you'd break down.

and the next thing you'd do is, get over it. stand up. and be strong =)

Dear neighbour on my left, you're the most inconsiderate person I've ever met in my entire life. I have been tolerating with you for years. I try to ignore what you always do. You curse so much when you walk by my house. Yet, I dont mind. I tolerate when you always destroy my Saturday and Sunday mornings. But, last night, when my dad told you nicely to be more considerate, you felt so insecure. You are one insensitive woman. You were scolding, shouting and caning your son outside at 12.30am. When told about your mistakes, you were off balanced. And you insulted my dad? How shallow are you? I've never seen someone like you.

Dear neighbour on my right, every morning, your child will cry just because he doesnt want to go kindergarten. My sleep is disturbed. I dont blame your son. your son has his reasons to not go to kindergarten. But, you cant just let things that way. Something must be done. however, you guys as parents, will start scolding him, and he will start crying very loudly. EVERYDAY. Still, I tolerate. I need my sleep too. I am tired. I need sleep. YET. I dont mind. But, just now it was a turning point. I could no longer tolerate. Both you husband and wife were quarreling so loudly. banging stuffs here and there? and your son was crying so loudly. and for God's sake, it was already night time.. dinner time.. I need to study too.

Dear neigbours above. how long does it take for you guys to renovate a house? it's gonna be three weeks soon.=.=

I get up from sleep early because of all the drillings and bangs.
YET. I still dont mind.

In fact, I took it positively. I thought. 

"okay. since you guys woke me up, I'll just study."

But nahh. today was really too over for me. 

Headache. MPW finals preparations. flu. 

and those drillings and bangs..were...too...much!

I tried to sleep. But, I couldnt.=)

SO YEA. 

maybe I am over exaggerating. like i said earlier.

I might act this way because I am already having a tough time.

and every single thing that happens around me, will annoy me for no particular reasons.=)

And, I guess. after all these, I start to think alot.

Things start to hit me from all directions.

I accidentally went to look at my brother's pictures taken in school and...

Memories started to flow in.

And. I cant stop crying..

I know. friendship remains.=) and make room for new friends.=D

I understand that.=) But sometimes, when you think of memories..

You either laugh or cry just by thinking about them =)

I do laugh at certain memories. But to some I cry because time flies too fast and memories cant be brought back.=)

I cant believe I can get this weak at this time. AHH! so not me!!! *bangs head*

I need strength. I need to be strong.

I know I can do it.

I just need. a push. a word of motivation..telling me I can do it.=)

I dunno what has gotten me this way.

Maybe. So many things have been happening and one slight hit makes me weak.

Even a strong person like me has her weakest hours kay?=P

I just wanna cry. After crying, I do feel better.=)

And no. this is not my normal me. I usually dont cry that easily.

On the bright side. I know I can go through this =)

I will stay positive.

Because that's what I am.
I wont give up that easily because of all these.

I know this is just a test.It's a tough one I guess? XDDD

After getting pissed , I am cooled off.

And I am gonna stay positive from now onwards.=)

I have people here who are willing to support me no matter what.=D

thanks..=) I love you guys =D

Tears fell.

But every single tear will make me stronger.=)

I believe in that.

And yes. I feel so much better for spilling everything out here.

my loyal blog xD

And yesh =) 

I believe that, after letting out, things will get better.

I will forget about all these and move on ;D

Afterall. you guys know me .ahem ahem ;D

I let go off things easily. AHEM XD AHAHAHA XD
Perasan betul =P

CHEERS! =)

xoxo~

"run run run~~"

hey-low.=)

So sorry for abandoning my blog for almost one month.

I've been really busy lately. trial was a week after test.

A very hectic month for me.

More like. Hurm. Three hectic months. september,october and november.=) 

Things have been going up and down. 

College is fine. Studies are well. 

Dramas have been going on lately. But well, I'll just enjoy the shows.

Thank goodness that I am not involved.

Childish dramas. Kindergarten dramas.

As people grow older, they tend to be more immatured huh? 

Maybe I am wrong. I dont know.=) Prove me wrong then.=)

It's already September. Hurm. Time flies huh?

And yes. it's kinda sad that I left high school already.

College life is not any easier as it seems.

The pressure is more than in high school.

It's either you do, or you fail, badly.

It's not easy. Especially when I am taking the fast track programme.

It's really tough to catch up. I need to be really disciplined and attentive.

It's a real heavy programme for me. I have faith.~

These are the people who are far apart by distance but close by hearts =) 

Yi Xin and HuiJie are both in KL. Sharyn, in Singapore. Ah Hon. stuck here in penang with me~ XD Josephine, still studying =P Rachel, in Kedah.

AHH! Imissyou all! =(

Hurm. These days. I dont know what is wrong with me.

But, I've been thinking a lot. LIKE A LOT.

I dont know why. but memories should be memories.

and I should create more memories.

I do feel like I am drifting apart from my high school friends.

Hurm. Maybe not really lar. Just that, we are not seeing as much as we used to in school~

We are not talking to each other as much as we used to. But time to time, we update ourselves with each other.

Somehow, I wish to go back form 5, and redo everything again.

I dont mind doing SPM again. Honestly, SPM was the best time. WHY?

I dunno. It seemed like we got really really close during that time.

Those crazy moments we had. Those McD moments. Those tears. Those laughters. Those texts. Those video calls.

Those midnight chats. Those kpop craze moments. Those musical practices. Those karate trainings. Those stay-backs.

I miss them. I really do. It's september now.

More than half of year 2011.

Time flies too fast.

Everyone has their own life now to deal with. I have my own one too.

I hope distance wont ruin our friendships. I hope so.

IMY and ILY.. 

Thanks for the awesome and great memories!

BESIDES THAT! On the bright side.=P I still have a few of my close friends in Penang! 

Thank goodness for that.although we are all busy with our studies, we still manage to catch up with each other.=)

I am lucky enough to have them here in penang.

The picture above are the karate fishes. except. Swee Hon of course XD

Distance is just a number. Friendship means a lot than that =) Cheers.

I will keep every single one of you close to my heart. 

I love every single one of you. =D

Cheers~~~

P/S=writing this in tears. unforgettable memories [less than three]

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