~And It speeds!~
Thursday, December 31, 2009
GOODBYE 2009!!
GREETINGS 2010!!=)
Wow~ I cant believe it..
Once again.. another year is ending..sigh..=(
Time does fly eh?=)
2010 is coming~ oh well.. It's gonna be a tough year..
Am sure.. Gonna be lots of happenings, unforgettable moments, riots, dramas?XD
Anyway.. I'm gonna summarize this year in just one word..
FAST!!
Like, I was just entering form 4..~ Getting to know my class and friends..
Then poof! Now it's the last day of 2009! So fast eh?
I really cant believe it..~ Like seriously..Too fast..=(
Many memories wit my fellow 4Bestarians..=)
Love every single one of them..
Without one, the class would be incomplete.. and different.
Everyone plays their own role..=)
Sigh..~ I wont forget this class ever..=) Love you guys..~
I've learnt many new things this year..=)
Not to mention new subjects.=P
haha.xD
Many sweet memories..=)
Especially... Chinese New Year this year.. Valentine's Day.....Days hanging out in Queensbay.. Camping in school..Days in genting..Prefects' dinner..Parties.. Open houses.=) 13th November,2009..Days going on a holiday with family..Every month is special to me.=) Because, there are many wonderful happenings in just one month...
Many bitter memories too..xD Too lazy to name them down~ Because, I dont wanna keep them~ hoho~XD
So, what I've learnt?
I've learnt to forgive quickly.
I've learnt to appreciate friends more..=)
I've learnt that, sometimes, you just dont realise how good that person is until you get to know him/her..=)
I've learnt that, no matter what happens, friends are always there to listen to your crap and bullshits..XD
I've learnt that giving up is not my option or decision..
I've learnt that everytime I fall, I'll be stronger..=)
I've learnt that when others need help, you have to help them despite what you're going through if you care for them.
I've learnt not to take things for granted too much.
I've learnt to appreciate one when he/she is still here.
I've learnt to smile more often.=)
I've learnt to laugh more and more..xD
I've learnt to stay positive in my life even more although things dont go the way I want to.
I've learnt to spend more time with my loved ones..
I've learnt that, it's alright to be straight forward to a certain someone when he/she is in the wrong..=)
I've learnt that no matter what I get myself into, family will always be there for me.=)
I've learnt that regretting when there's nothing I can do is too late.
I've learnt that you have to believe someone eventhough the result of something is not on that someone's side if you really do trust that someone.
I've learnt that, flashing a smile to someone and saying "bye" doesnt hurt..
I've learnt that making a fool out of myself is plainly dumb..XD
I've learnt to appreciate every single moment in my life.
There are many things I've learnt..
But, I've gotta say, I've changed.. A lot..I used to be the shy type when it comes to certain stuffs, but now, I'll tell more stories..xD
Changes make me feel good somehow..=)
My resolutions? I'm just gonna K.I.S.S.=P
Am gonna make it simple..=)
*Put a 101% in my studies ..no more fooling around~ no more going out too often..xD*
*Score good grades in Physics, Add Math, English, BM,Chemistry and Maths in my SPM..=) *
*Gonna stay stronger than ever!*
*No more neglecting my karate trainings.. Gotta get that black belt!!!=)*
*If there's spare time, I just wanna keep myself fit by exercising..=)*
*Try not to hurt anyone..=)*
*Gonna be there for my friends even more*
*Study till I get a strand of white hair..yeah! XD*
*Still keeping that faith all the time..=)*
*Be more friendly XD*
*Gotta sacrifice more.=)*
Fuhh.. Those are the main ones.=)
Gotta enjoy the year 2010! last year in SMKBJ~ Gonna miss my friends~ Sigh..
Cheers!!=)
Hope you guys have a blast!!
Be happy everyone!!..=)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
May it bring happiness, joy and more blessings this new year!!..=)
Create more memories!!
Forgive quickly..~
Most importantly..~
Just follow the flow~ *winks!*

I'm still thinking of you..~ Just why?hurm...
12:33 AM
~30th December, 2009~
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Went out with HuiJie, Eunice, Rachel, Le Anne and Sonia today..=)
We went to watch... Alvin and the chipmunks 2!! XD
that was my 2nd time anyway..=P But, I love it..=P
I love Theordore the most..~ Jesse McCartney is the voice of Theordore which makes me love Theordore more..=P
Anyway.. We went to McD to have our lunch..=)
Really sorry to Sonia and Li-Ying for the calls..XD i really couldnt hear my phone ringing.. I really dont know why..=(
Met up wit Li-Ying and Josephine too=)
Then, movie later. After movie, was wondering around the mall.
We went to Nichii later.=P
But couldnt find any nice dresses..
So we went to Forever 21~ xD okays~ we all tried the outfits we chose lar.
except for Eunice~ She had to go back that time..sighh.
Cant see her in dress again....hurm..=(
After that, we went to borders.. Read some funny books..xD
Lots of funny stories about farts.=P
Later, accompanied HuiJie to find someone..Saw Fatini and Aniq der.=)
Both looking good..whoaa..XD
HuiJie saw the person she was looking for and run into the mall again..=.="" [aiyo..XD]
We spent our time in Borders till our parents picked us up.=)
Later, I had add math tuition~ was tired..XD
That's all for the whole day.=P
"I just have to trust and believe..."
I see the green icon next to your name..
Yet, I'm still afraid to talk to you..
After it has been so long..
When I see you, I try to move my eyes away..
I dunno why, am I so afraid to face you..
I duno why, I feel like you are the one who should start the conversation with me..
Why cant I be the one? Am I being selfish?
11:20 PM
~Still Confused~
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
:+: What really reflects me? :+: It's been about a week now..=)I've gotta say.... I feel awkward,still...My progression? Isnt going on very well.. I dont tink I can even get through by myself.I've been really upset when night comes...In the afternoon, I keep myself occupied by watching television and solving sudoku puzzles..While chatting with my friends at night, I can just turn really upset.. and cry...everyday...Yeap..without fail.. I'm silly I know..But I tell myself, it's normal..It's like a daily routine. When it comes to that time, I cant control my emotions anymore..Just burst out from my soul..It has been going on like this for about a week..And, I dunno till when.anyway...I've got something to share with you all of you!..=)So, I've been living at the same housing area since I was borned..XD
What do I think of my neighbours? Let's see.=P
I have a neighbours that are actually.. very weird..=.=""
I have a neighbour that curses in front of her son..and also..on her son..=.=
I have a neighbour that she thinks others cant do but she can.
I have neighbours that talk so loud on Sunday mornings..
hello!! Sunday mornings..=.="
I have neighbour that is kinda odd because she wants to park her car where there are no windows above her car..=.="
When she heard my dad's engine get started, she'll come out from her house and park the lot when my dad drives away..=.=" [only when my dad parks his car where there are no windows above his car.XD]
I have a neighbour that is very busybody.
I have a neighbour that spreads rumours.
I have a neighbour that has a dog but, barks all the time..!
I have a neighbour that has kids about 10 to 12 years old running at the corridor almost everyday..
I have a neighbour that has a son of age 6 years and cries everyday..OMG!
Do I love them?=P
I'll leave the answer to you..XD
I wore that pendant when I was there.
I was keeping it close to myself
If you think, by not starting a conversation with you now is because am ignoring you,
you're wrong.=)
I am just balnk and still afraid
I am still wondering...
"Perhaps, I'm trying not to show it..." >>Regretting is too late<<
10:07 PM
~Taking Things For Granted~
Complicated as it seems.. But only one phrase to explain everything.."She wants you to know she's alright and hopes you're always fine"..Got into a lil chat wit a friend of mine. Gotta say, it was pretty interesting.=)What I have to say to everyone is..Be happy with the one you're with right now.Eventhough he/she might be busy with something, I'm sure he/she will at least, show u his/her care.I'm sure he/she tries to reply your calls or messages.Eventhough if it's a short message..Maybe, a simple message..saying "I love you", "i miss you", "I hope you're fine", "I'm thinking of you" etc..=) It doesnt matter if he/she doesnt ask about your day.. It doesnt matter if he/she forgotten to ask u about what have you done the whole day. I'm sure he/she is too tired and tend to forget this little things and goes for more important tings..=)Like, making you happy.. Telling you jokes.. Telling you how much he/she cares about u. Or most importantly, just trying to talk to you..=)Everything's gonna be fine once he/she is not busy anymore.And he/she'll go back to you..Have a lil faith and trust in each other..=) Am sure.. he/she is still tinking of you when he/she is busy wit work..Dont take things for granted..trust me..=)Dont end up regretting like me..Because. I was once being so sensitive towards a person..And now, when I tink of it, man, I was just making a fool out of myself!XD Like, i really took things for granted.
I thought of many nonsense and alot..
I wanted more.And I just couldnt get enough. I know I was selfish.But, I had only one reason. It was because, I cared so much towards that person..I guess, I took things too far and in the wrong ways..XD But, thinking back, I know that person wanted me to feel alright and not to worry so much.Eventhough it was just a short message, to me, it means a lot to me now.=) At least, a lil sacrifice was seen..A lil effort was put into.rather than being ignored...
Now, I regret..And I hope.. that person knows..=) And I'm trully sorry..sigh..=(
[So, friend!=) Be happy with you know who lar.=) Sorry i was kinda harsh to you.. bt i hope u understand lar..=) I cant help much.. Because, it still goes down to you... be strong and positive. I know u can do it!.=)]
"Giving up wasnt an option or decision to me"
1:46 AM
~I Still Have Faith~
Monday, December 28, 2009
Giving up isnt my option,
And that answers your question,
I still have faith,
Eventhough it might ache,
By not talking to you,
Doesnt mean ignoring you,
Just wanna have some time,
And that isnt a crime,
Now that I know,
The guilt grows,
Smiling doesnt mean am alright,
Laughing doesnt mean everything's right.
Being strong is something I will do,
But, am not sure where I'm heading to,
I'm confused,
And I'm still not used.
Went to school today..=) To buy books.. Found out later that stock isnt enough for us..=.=" Wasted time there..=) Talking to friends. And to find out which class I'm settled in.. Found out about the class.. Was kinda mad, sad and happy about it.. Many reasons.. But I just dont have the mood to write them down..=) I'm confused of myself.. I really dunno what am I doing.. Most importantly.. What happened to me is something I really cant answer..Have nothing else to say. Felt a lil awkward in school too.. Just.. oh well.. nvm abt that..=) Am gonna be brave.. Dont worry...
12:17 AM
~Golden Sand~
Thursday, December 24, 2009
It's the big day for the seniors.Prom night.This time, it's held at a hotel by the beach.Everyone seems to be excited yet anxious about this big event.As for Miss X, well, she isnt feeling the same way as others.The girls are dressed up elegantly and also with their heavy make-ups on.The guys are suited smartly too."Do I look okay?""Does my make-up look alright on me?""How's my tie?""How's my dress? "Some simple questions commonly heard during the event.=)Everyone was busy preparing themselves for this event.Hunting dresses and suits that look good on them.Shoes.. Accessories.. Just anything they want to put on themselves! But, as for Miss X, she wasnt really looking forward for this day.She wants to skip the whole event.She rather be at home, watching tv and laze around.She feels weak and slowly losing her confidence as second ticks by.But, she knows that this is gonna be the last event that the seniors can hang out together.As in the future, most of them will be busy chasing after their dreams .She's dressed up in a very simple manner..A long blue dress. With laces below. It shows her body shape. also showing her bare shoulders. Light make-ups on her. And little accessories on her too. Shoes? A pair of simple black heels.Although she's surrounded by her friends and laughing along with them, she senses loneliness in her.She feels empty.She's alone.. No date for this prom night.As for others?Most of them do.With their special ones.Most of her friends too.She walks out from the ballroom alone.She strolls along the beach enjoying the breeze..mmm..She finds a bench and she sits alone.Staring far to the sea..She calms herself.She closes her eyes.And memories linger in her mind.Tears fill her eyes and flow down her cheeks..She closes her face with her palms..Sobbing slowly..Thoughts flood her mind.She cant seem to forget that person..A very best friend to her. She had been loving him secretly for quite some time..She stands up from the bench and starts walking to the washroom..She wipes away the tears.. And she touches up her make-ups that are slightly ruined.She heads up to the ballroom to meet up with her friends again.This time, with a smile on her face to show that she's strong. but deep down, she feels empty.She joins her friends.Her friends notice her swollen eyes and ask her whether she's fine or not.She answers them bravely saying she's alright.And..then.. She sees that person that she cant forget from afar..He looks back at her. Both smile to each other..He's alone by himself too..She breaks down to tears again.She cant bare to see him. She wants him badly. But she cant make him hers.She loves him too much. She misses him too. They havent been talking for quite some time.She runs towards the doors..Wiping away her tears..She doesnt care about her make-ups smudging her face anymore.All she wants to do is to get herself out from that place.She runs and runs.Until suddenly...She feels a very tight hug from behind.Her heart pounds so fast as if she will faint anytime..She recognises those hands around her waist..He whispers, "Dont you leave me alone here tonight..." She recognises that voice.Tears fill her eyes even more.It's him. It's that person she cant forget. He's been watching her all the time from afar.She turns behind and looks straight into his eyes.She cant believe that sight.She replies, "I never thought you'll be hugging me now..I never thought you'll be coming to me. I am about to give up. I thought I'm going to lose you to someone more suitable for you.." "I'm sorry my love. I wont leave you from now on. I've been lonely quite a while. And you're the one I need. I've realised my dear. I know you've been suffering. I am too. You are always kept in my mind and heart. I just want you to be mine forever.." , he replies her."Really? I've been waiting so long for you..I...." "Shh...Dont spoil the moment. I love you...It's been a long time."he stops her from talking."I love you too!.. Gosh! You..! *laughs*..I'll be yours forever too..." she says..He kisses her on the cheeks. She blushes a little..She's still blank that moment..She cant believe it's happening. She cant believe that the guy of her dream is finally hers.She'll remember that day forever.He wipes away her tears..He holds her hand. His fingers fit perfectly between the spaces of her fingers.He holds tightly. He doesnt want to let her go.They walk out from the ballroom together with their hands held together.They talk their own sweet time together and head to the beach.While strolling along the beach, he stops..He lets go off her hand.She's in shock..She thought he changes his mind.But, suddenly. He stands in front of her..His arms wrapping her waist. His eyes staring straight into her eyes.She goes blank. She doesnt know what's happening.Slowly, he moves his head closer to her face.She moves hers too.[you may wanna skip this whole part if you feel uncomfortable=P]Their lips meet.So tender..so soft. and wet..They kiss passionately.Both close their eyes. To have that extra excitement.They share the air they breathe.They swap their saliva with each other. She moves closer to him.Their bodies are in contact. [oh-em-gee..am going too far eh?XD ] Her hands brushing through his hair..His hands are right above her waist..He hugs her tightly..They bite gently and playfully at each others lips.They are in heaven now.They seem care less about the people around them or things around them.They feel the presence of each other only.She feels safe being wrapped around him. She feels special.She feels that she is loved.And he feels happy for protecting her.She opens her eyes, and she sees him.Isnt she happy? They hold hand and head back to the ballroom again.She's smiling so widely now.Dinner is about to be served.They sit down together for their dinner.Others stare at them only.The music plays.Time to dance!..He held out his hand asking her to be his partner.Without any hesitation, she takes his hand..Her head is on his shoulder.His hand on her waist.They dance like there's no tomorrow.They enjoy each others' presence..Rhythm by rhythm, they follow with their dance steps.The music continues to play...She feels that..She's someone now.Not that girl with low self-esteem.. She's happy with himShe feels special..She wants him in her life now and forever.She decided to come out with a theme for this special day..
Which is..."Golden Sand"...[Ahh~ What a fairytale...=).. Inspired by Sharyn after talking with her about prom.. Faham2 lar what I mean..XD ]**This post isnt about me~ Dont misunderstand lar.=( i feel bad kays..XD **
"Because I am still gonna plaster a smile on my face..=)"
11:31 PM
~And the rain falls~
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
It's alright =)I still have faith..XD It might take some time..Like seriously..It's alright if I cry even occasionally after what happened..When I think back, gosh~ tears just fill my eyes..I cant help myself.. But!!!It shows that am normal..=P hmph..XD I have to admit..~ I still cry~.But, tears, they'll just dry sooner or later~And every teardrop, makes me feel a little relieved. As I am able to let out everything that I've been keeping so long.Eventhough I might not seem that fine, but, I'll still plaster a smile saying that I'm strong enough..=)I'll still laugh at jokes..=)I'll still keep those memories.. Dont worry..I love them..=)I've enjoyed myself..=)All I can say is, thanks. Like seriously.I owe you big time!..=)A lil regret at times.=)But, it's OK lar..I've changed myself..From oh well~ not so open-minded girl to extremely open-minded now..@_@That's all.=) Sharyn Lim Pei Hwern! XD thanks for tolerating wit me~ like seriously..xD how can u stand me crapping ? XD "I aint giving up in my life=)"
8:58 PM
~Let Them Out~
I have no idea.. but i just have the urge to blog right now..=)
Oh well~
sometimes, you've gotta learn to forget...
You've gotta learn to forgive..
And never ever regret with life.=)
Sometimes.. You've gotta learn to move on..
And every challenge you face, it's gonna make you stronger..
Just take every problem.. mistake.. lost...as a motivation in your life..=)
You only have one life to spend in this world.
And you only have one mission which is to make it worth while! =)
Let memories be memories.
And let those memories be your motivation too..=)
it might hurt you..
It might make you cry..
it might make you smile
But seriously, memories do make me stronger..=)
Now, my memories shall be kept in a box..~
In a place where I cant see..=)
where I cant reach too~.=)
In a place that wont remind me that much..
And I'll open them.. Perhaps..
not that soon~..;)
Flashbacks wont leave me alone..~
But, I do like that feeling sometime..=)
I can move on~
Says who I cant?XD
Hello~ I am Chew Li Ean~..=)
The ever happy-go-lucky I used to be~
And soon~ I'll be showing the world am alright.. am fine
and dont have to worry about me at all! =)
it might be hard for me..
I doubt I can move on..
But, am just doubting myself..
That aint gonna make things better..=)
Next year is gonna be a big year for me! like whoahhhh~
XD
the big 5 appears?
like~ wow~ 4 yrs in BJ scul already?
wow~..=)
I've just gotta be patient with my life..=)
Gotta buck up to achieve the goals that I want..
What goals exactly?=)
Oh well..xD
I just want..~ a black belt..~ oh yea!! in karate~=)
I'm gonna train harder..~ But I know I wont be able to get black by next year..~
hurm~
Let's just continue about my resolutions for year 2010 in the next post alright?=)
Stay tuned!
I wish I can photograph those memories too..XD
I wanna thank a lot of people~ Especially these days..=)
Sharyn [my dear2..XD] , Hui Jie, Eunice, Rachel, Izzad, Azwan, Elvin Di Di [trust me~ jiejie loves u! XD ] Angelyn and Fhail..=) Nah..xD They've been very great to me these days..=P They really cracked me up~ xD with their silly actions..=P
P/S= Caught Sharyn in action!! She has done too many crimes..@_@
She was caught.. eating bahulu.. 2am in the morning..@_@ and drinking soda?! yoo gurl~ I love you! XD Now.. it's 3.30am~ And she's caught eating cocktail sausages! her sister cooked for her.=) Ahh! She's torturing her dog, Barley!! She's tempting Barley..=( Look at her..T_T Next time, i kidnap your Barley baru tau~ xD I'll take care of her~ muahahaha.XD
And to Fhail, my deepest condolences to your lost..You're strong.. I know you are..You still have us with you..=)
2:47 AM
~Calender Pictures, 2010 ! XD~
Monday, December 21, 2009
Here are my calender pictures for year 2010! XD

:+: January :+:
[I Love You Girl! =) ]
:+: February :+:[Part Of 4Bestari's Girls..=) ]
:+: March:+:
[Partibhan's Open House.=) ]

:+: April :+:
[We Clean The School But We Have High Ambitions..=P ]
:+: May:+:
[Our own 4Tesco XD]

:+: June :+:
[With My Karate members..and sensei Sam.=) ]

:+:July:+:
[1 Malaysia concept indeed?=) ]

:+: August:+:
[My babes! XD HuiJie, my dar dar..xD And Rachel, Our goldfish.=P ]

:+: September:+:
[Hanging monkey=Me and September baby=My dear2.=) ]
:+: October :+:
[So what if we are posers?=P We love each other! =P]

:+:November:+:
[4Bestari, 2009! =) ]
:+: December:+:
[Mummy..=) ]
~The End~
2:53 AM
~OoOh -ooH~
It's kinda amazing that, even one is dead, his music never dies..=)His dances are still admired by many..Guess who?None other than.. Michael Jackson itself..Although some of his moves are really obscene, but I really love his music and his dance..It's been more than half a year since he's gone.But, most of us can still feel his presence here, eh? I've listened to his songs since young.Kinda nice..=)Love them actually..Especially "you are not alone"..Hurm..I was walking pass a shop..And there was one huge LCD tv..=)It was playing MJ's video..Ladies.. Gentlemen gathered around the tv to watch the video..Like.. whoah! XD I was watching too..=)I know~ He's well-known..He's a legend..=)What else.Everyone has their own problems..Yeap~ After chatting with a few of my friends..Finally realised what they are going through..=)Just gotta buck up now!Some random thing I said.."The more challenges we face in our life, the more worth it is our lives"..
I duno how to move on..
1:25 AM
~A Day~
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Went out wit HuiJie, Eunice and Rachel just now.. Yeap. Only four of us.=) In Queensbay as usual..=)
Sharyn isnt here..=( Nhiva.. busy wit her prayers I guess..=)
Wanted to watch movie at first, but ended up didnt..haih..
Nothing much happened lar during the whole outing.
Spent about 1 hr in McD itself..@_@
Later, waited for Eunice. Walked here and there..
Wanted to buy something.. to make for.. someone.. for christmas..
but oh well..
Found nothing..=) not that nice anyway..=)
Searched for earrings, hairbands.. And accesories..>.<""
Just for fun.. We didnt buy any of those.XD
Eunice arrived. Started walking here and there again..=)
Stopped at Forever 21.. Saw many accesories.. Wanted to buy....but neh...xD
Saw many cute dresses there..
Wanted to force Eunice to wear.. But, she didnt want to..=.="
We decided to go 2 Nichii to search for dresses just to try on Eunice.=)
Each of us chose the one we like.
Eunice looked good on the dress she chose..
But she didnt wanna take off her pants.. It looked pretty odd..=.=""
I like the dress I've tried on.. It's not that expensive.. But it's black and my mum doesnt like me wering black..
God knows why..>.<"
Walked around again.. Stopped at a new stall..
Some ice blended shop.. From Singapore..=)
Tried the chocolate ice-blended.. It was very sweet..I dont like sweet stuffs..>.<""
Anyway, we decided to go to the "beach"..
But, it was drizzling.. Went in again.. Saw many cute stuffs...
Went to Padini..err.. I wonder why too..=)
Waited der.. And walked out from Padini again to go to the beach.=)
It was still drizzling.. But we didnt bother anymore..
Took some random photos there. Bought some food..
Went back into the mall..
Went to Jusco.. Cause HuiJie wanted to buy sushi..
Eunice bought too.. I bought corn in cup.. Like finally! XD
Waited for my dad to come.. Had dinner.. Now i'm here blogging..=)
Some pictures so I dont bore you peeps..
Sorry for the dull post.. I'm tired..I didnt have enough sleep..

:+:The Dress I Like:+:

:+: Some Scenary:+:

"Because I Still Believe. Because I cant do it on my own. Because you're the one"
9:52 PM
~Michael Buble!~
Michael Buble-Havent Met You Yet
I'm not surprisedNot everything lasts
Have broken my heart so many times
I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in,
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up
Then I let myself down.
I tried so very hard not to lose it
I came up with a million excuses
I thought I thought of every possibility
And I know someday that it'll all turn out
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid that I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
Mmmmm ....
I might have to wait
I'll never give upI guess it's half time
And the other half's luck
Wherever you are
Whenever it's right
You come out of nowhere and into my life
And I know that we can be so amazing
And baby your love is gonna change me
And now I can see every possibility
Hmmmmm ......
And somehow I know that will all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid I'll give so much more than I get
I just haven't met you yet
They say all's fair
And in love and war
But I won't need to fight it
We'll get it by it ??
To be united
And I know that we can be so amazing
And being in your life is gonna change me
And now I can see every single possibility
Hmmm .....
And someday I know it'll all turn out
And I'll work to work it out
Promise you kid I'll give more than I get
Than I get, than I get, than I get!
Oh you know it will all turn out
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out
And I promise you kid to give so much more than I get
Yeah I just haven't met you yet
I just haven't met you yet
Oh promise you kid
To give so much more than I get
I said love love love love love love love .....
I just haven't met you yetLove love love .....
I just haven't met you yet
12:17 AM
~You Make Me Believe~
Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Always remembering every single one of you...=)
9:42 PM
~Because It Matters~
Monday, December 14, 2009
Hurm..Well..xDSo many things just happened coincidently at the same time..=)Angie just messaged me and she called me "dear"..She asked me about some duty tomorrow in school..Eunice just messaged me and she called me "honey"..She asked about something about the event on wednesday..Hui Jie just messaged me and she called me "dar dar"..She asked like what Eunice asked me..=) Those callings, play2 oni lar among us..=P But, I really miss something a lot...=)Perhaps, God is really testing me.=)I'll be standing at the beginning with you..
I'll be here for you.. As always..
10:23 PM
~It's all about her and him~
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Another few days and he's leaving..This is gonna be someting she will not forget... She's trying so hard to grab every single second that is left..And, she's trying so hard to tell herself,"Well, he's gonna be away.. just for a while.. Dont you worry so much..Let him enjoy.. You're gonna enjoy yourself when you're there too"..=)But, she cant help myself..As every second ticks by, the feeling of missing him gets stronger..As every day passes by, she hopes the time stops..She just wanna spend more time with him..But, time is too cruel.. It speeds off as fast as it can leaving her no choice but to let time tormenting her slowly..She watches him from a far..She tries to be with him all the time..She makes excuses just to see him even if it's a few seconds..She follows her friends just to see him..She tries to get close to him..She looks into his eyes.. But later, she looks away because her heart starts to pound so fast..She looks for him after school..Just to get a look of him.But most of the time, he walks out of the school already..She tries to give support for the upcoming competition..She prays so hard that the school will win..She wants to be one of the supporters of the school just to see him and his fellow team members perform on stage..The big day comes and she is nervous..Her hands turn icy cold..She watches carefully and full of concentration and anticipation as her school's name was called up to perform..She looks at him.. just him..Her eyes.. Just fall on him..Lunch time arrives..
She looks at him.. All the time.. She is scared that he'll caught her secretely looking at him..Well, she's scared because she is kinda shy although it has been quite a while since they are together..She turns away to the person at the counter in a fast food restaurant just to order her lunch..She takes her food and join her fellow friends..
He's just sitting behind her..She tries so hard not to look at him when she eats..But, she fails to do so.. She tries to strike a conversation..She asks a question, "Got tomato sauce ah? The one over here tastes funny lar.." [lame i know..xD I feel like shooting her too! =P hey~ it's just a story kays..=) ]Mr X starts to search everywhere.. So does her special guy..Mr X found a bottle of tomato sauce.. And, he passes the bottle to her special guy..Her special guy tells her, "I found this.. Not Mr X"..They laugh..=) She's happy .. well.. not knowing the reason why..Later, she follows her friend to change clothes..He calls her but she is unable to pick up the call ..She messages him.. asking him where is he..Soon, she starts wondering around with her friend, Miss Y around the mall..She waits for his messages patiently..She thinks that her fellow schoolmates are in the bowling alley and she starts walking into the bowling alley. Searching for her fellow schoolmates and most importantly... him...Search and search... She sees none of her schoolmates der.. Perhaps, her specs make her a lil dizzy..She walks out wit Miss Y.. Still searching for them.. He messages her saying that he's somewhere near the cinema..She searches and again, she sees none of them..Much to disappointment..And suddenly..He messages her again saying he's in the bowling alley..She pulls her friend to the bowling alley..Ahh~ They are all the while in the bowling alley.. they are hiding in a corner..Again, her specs make her dizzy~ She watches him intensely.. It's about time to go back to the venue..They walk out of the bowling alley together.. She cant help herself..She tries to look into his eyes.. And later, she smiles at him.. He looks at her..Then, she looks away .. She's still smiling..[dont you just wanna kill her now?=)]He sits behind her later..She is so happy.. She turns around so many times just to look at him..But her friend behind her tries to annoy them..[ish ish .. tat friend..=.="]Another break arrives.. This time, it's tea break.She and her fellow schoolmates, skip the whole break and head to the bowling alley, again..This time, she tries to bowl.. And of course.. she washes the drain the most..[yor.. this girl is such an embarassment..xD better dont bowl lar..XD ]He guides her.. Still, she cant get it right.. he doesnt say anything.. But, he continues to teach her..She hits down a few pins dwon.. She is so proud of that achievement ..[swt..=.=" few pins oni ma! show off betui =P]She watches him play.. whoosh~ ..She is left speechless..=) Break time is over..She loves it when he holds the door for her..She loves it when he waits for her..They head down to the venue again..All of them settle down..He gets thirsty.. He asks her whether does she want any drinks...or juice..Without any hesitation, she says "yes~I want tomato juicee!! =) please buy for me.. i pay u later.=) "..She messages him when he is off to buy the juice..He gets back with a few bottles of juices..He gets for her a bottle of apple juice..[But, does she care what juice it is?=)]She takes the bottle.. Opens the lid.. And, sip by sip, she enjoys the taste of the juice..She doesnt wanna finish it off to fast..So, she takes her bottle of water and drinks that first..She keeps the apple juice about half the bottle..She wants to pay him, but he kinda ignore what she says...=P The results are soon to be announced..Her hands turn icy cold again..She's hoping so hard that her school wins..After so much hardwork the school team had put into..She's waiting anxiously..Clasping her hands so tightly together..And then.....The MC announces......."alright.. so the 2nd runner up is.......SMK *tuuut*..." [XD ape nih? =P]She starts screaming on top of her voice and she claps loudly with the clappers she has..She watches him getting up the stage..
She says to herself inside her heart, "I'm definately proud of you..=)"And, the results of the first runner up and the winner is announced later..She looks at him.. He's on the stage.. Smiling for the photographers..Later, he gets down from the stage..He and his team mates collect back all the stuffs they bring for their competition..His fellow team mates start cursing on the phone with their special ones..But, he doesnt curse on her..=)She is happy.. Her friends are teasing her..She doesnt seem to bother those teases but she gives them a wide smile..She messages him although they are only few feets away..He's disappointed.. yet, she tries to make him happy..She doesnt know if she makes him happy by motivating him..But, he's alright..They get up to the bus later on..His fellow team mates are still cursing on the phone..As for him? he's smiling..
She's relieved.. She's proud to see he's all so strong and positive minded...She'll never forget that day..=)Days pass by. It's the last day of school..She's upset..She wont be able to see him everyday in school anymore as year end holiday is the barrier..She tries so hard to be with him..She fails to do so..Both of them are busy on that day.. With their own duties to perform for the school..Recess time approaches..And it ends so fast..He asks her whether has she seen his bag anywhere..She wants to help him so much.. But, she really doesnt know where his bag is..Disappointed...She goes back to her class.. And much to her surprise, she sees his bag on her table..She's still catching her breath because she runs back to her class..She grabs his bag and carries it on her shoulders..=)She goes around the school to search for him..Later, she finds him having his class party..She passes him the bag..He asks her not to leave yet..She sees her friend, Miss Z with her one and only, Mr N..She waits for him..Later, Mr N tells her to wait as someone is gonna serve her something too while he continues to serve Miss Z a cup of drink..=)She gets her drink from her special one.. She tries not to blush.. She smiles and thank him.=) She realises that there's a hole beneath her cup and water starts dripping out from there..Same goes to Miss Z's cup~..What a coincidence..=)Later, some problems arise and he has to solve them..She isnt sure if that's true or not.So, she, Miss Z and Mr N follow him to find out the problems..But, they stop halfway to meet up with some people. And they start taking pictures..[the problems le? o.O]She has to stand beside him to take some pictures..They continue walking around the school and start taking pictures with who ever they bump into..She enjoys the whole thing as she is able to be with him..And, of course, she has a camera in her hand.. Not an ordinary camera.. But the one with a very good focus camera.They stop at her class later on.. She wants to take pictures with him..Later, everyone starts staring at her...She doesnt like the stares.. But she enjoys his presence beside her..She loves the pictures although she doesnt look nice..Later, she has some duties to do..At night, she has some event going on..She is thinking of him.. and missing him.Also, she cant make up her mind on certain decisions..=)She wishes that he's there with her..He cant make it due to some reasons..The whole night, she tries to keep herself busy..But, she fails..again..Her friend found out and asks her, "missing him eh?aww...talk to him lar..=) " Her tears are about to fill her eyes..She holds back.. She smiles..She sits on a slide..She's staring at the sky..She knows.. She cant deny it anymore..After the whole event, she's all very down again..But, she is happy later on because she's able to talk to him, at least..=)he says stuffs that makes her goes super high that night..She feels safe with him.. They talk without knowing the time..She feels sorry for him as he accompanies her til late night..She misses his voice...=)The next day, he leaves ...heavy hearted, she cant do anything but she hopes he's always alright and enjoying himself..=)she tells herself to be strong.. It isnt easy for her..She is trying 2 clear tings off her mind.She goes out with her friends..Yet, her mind is still tinking of him..=)And now, She sits on her bed...She's holding on to her beloved's token that he left to her, before he went to somewhere. She cries in agony to wait for him to come back to her.... She simply, misses him as every second ticks by. His warmth,touch, and smell that brings her to ecstasy at night.There's something she really wants to do..She wants to apologise tonnes to him..Doesnt this story sound familiar to you?=)I thought so..xDSorry if there's any grammar error..Am sure there are many..XDAnd, sorry if it bores u..=D Another fantasy dream in a fantasy land~ "Every little silly thing you do for me, it's always sweet..=) "
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