~Oh Sweetness!~
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Thanks for all the memories~..=)
Hope to make new ones~..=)
Those memories I'll treasure them always..
Sweet memories, bitter memories..
Will always be memories in my heart and mind..
I'm glad I've found you..
You make me feel secure,
You make me feel special everytime..
But, sometimes.. during bitter times...
It is not easy for me..
I hate those bitter memories,
But, those bitter memories had made me realised that I really dont wanna loose you..
I just want you to stay with me...
There's too many tings to write about..=)
Here's for you..
ILY~..
P/S= "that someone", dont scold me for this~~..Just expressing..=) my online diary~~
1:55 AM
~Open up your arms~
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Woots! Will update soon about the recent hang out! =)
Love you peeps~~..=)
Love someone more~ XP
11:47 AM
~Decisions~
Friday, September 25, 2009
Decisions, decisions, decisions!Never fail, I'll face them everyday~..Most common question.. "what do I feel like eating today?" Forget about that..=) By the way, this is inspired by the poem "the road not taken" =) And, I relate it to my life..Sometimes.. I really do ask myself..What if I've take the other path?What if I've taken the first choice given to me?What are the obstacles I will face? What will happen to me?What will happen to my happiness?What about my freedom?Who will I be by then? But...I've taken the second choice..And, I must say, I never regretted taking the second choice..I've been thinking a lot during that period of time..I know I have to choose only one decision~..and..It wasnt easy..But, I really do wonder. If I have taken the first choice,Will I be given as much happiness as I have now?Will I be happier or perhaps, more problems will arise?Nobody knows what will happen~ and I cant turn back time to change my decision and go for the first one..I have to move on with life~I hope others too..~My decision may not satisfy everyone.. But, I have to go for the right one for me when it comes to my life....I wonder why the old rumours are still going around..Hurm~ people still talks about "that" although it has been more than a year now..I wonder~ Good ol' times..=)
12:12 AM
~A lil hope is all I wanted~
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
A smile is all I needed to brighten up my day..
A joke is all I wanted to release the stress away..
To non other than my...? XD
Anyway.. you know who you are..=)
Basically, I just want you to be strong..
Do not to give up on everything quickly..
I know that it seems like you're having a very hard time now..
But, it wont last that long, will it?
So cheer up, yea..=)
I dont wanna see you all upset because of feelings..
Sometimes, you just have to understand..
I'm not breaking your heart, hopes or anything..dont misunderstand
Remember my words..
"It" cant be forced..I'm sorry to say this..
But, it's the fact..and, I really hope that my words didnt hurt you..
I was just telling the truth..I'm sorry yea..=)
It's hard to get both parties agree to something..
Dont be sad for your decision before this..
It wasnt your fault, alright?
What's done is done..
As i said.. It's fate..~...
And, I hope things will get better for you..
I'll be right here..supporting you..
I'm very sure.. Everything is gonna be OK!
Just, give time some space...
Everything will be back to normal again~..
All you have is a lil faith in yourself..=)
If you need to talk,
I'm always here...
Be strong!!
P/S= nah~ it isnt "him"..just a some motivation to my fren~..=)
11:33 PM
~1...2...3...and Action!!~
Friday, September 18, 2009
"Oh my God! It's 9.10am already?!"
And I ran out of the room...I knew I was late for my CO2 project..
At that very moment, I quickly called Joel up to wake up so that all of us could go to his house to have our breakfast..=P But, I guess he was bathing..? according to Gaik Sim..hurm..xD
My breakfast was "Hokkien Maggie Mee" Thanks Mun for buying..=P Otherwise, I really would have skip my breakfast..XD
so, i reached there on time.. 10am as required..=P Joel came down to open the door for me~ [Note that only if you have a pass, then only you can enter]
And we just talked at Joel's house~ Mun, Gaik Sim, Joel and I were the only ones there..pfft.. And I thought I was late.. =.="
We couldnt wait for Nhivi and Boo Yeong to arrive to have breakfast together, so we had ours first.=P
Our stomachs were rumbling..xD
It took me 20min++ to finish my Hokkien Maggie Mee~ ya ya~ I'm slow~ Pfft..
Nhivi and Boo Yeong came later..
After our breakfast, we sat down and discussed about our video-taking..=)
Joel and Gaik Sim can actually be a very good couple..=P
They acted out some of the scenes before we went down for filming...
And, they were really funny..xD
While practising, Azwan called to tell Joel that he and Mathu had arrived. We asked them to come for our filming because we need scenes of them riding their motorcycles like crazy kids..=)
They've done a great job! =) and I really would like to thank them for coming..=) They sacrificed their time for our filming..~ how touching is that? xD
After our scenes of the motorcycles, I took a lot of random pictures.. While waiting for the old man[Joel] and his wife[Gaik Sim] to change..=) Then, we headed to Bukit Dumbar for our next lovey dovey scene~ ahem..xD of Joel and Gaik Sim..xD
It was so funny looking at them..xD
so, after that, Mun called Domino's Pizza for our lunch~
Gosh~ We were so hungry after walking here and there.. and also, under the hot sun..
Aww, i pity Mun~ She had sunburn~..>.<> Boo Yeong fell from the bike..=.="
So, we ordered some kind of promotion set they are having right now for RM50 nett..The set consists of one large pizza, one regular pizza, garlic onion ring and one 1.5litre drink~ mmmmm..=P
So we ordered chicken pepperoni for the large pizza and tuna temptation for the regular one. Extra cheese for both~ yummy!! =)
And, that guy on the phone just couldnt stop talking..=P
Pity Mun and also Gaik Sim's money~..XD
And, that guy on the phone mistaken Joel as a "Miss"? xD because Mun was the one calling anyway~..=P
We walked back to Joel's house.. And waited for about 40 minutes for the pizzas to arrive..
When the pizza man arrived.. He was late lar..xD and, he gave a very weird look to Joel..Hurm.. I guess he was wondering "are you MISS Joel Thum??? " It was so funny..xD
We tried not to laugh in front of that pizza delivery man.~..=P
We had our pizzas, and wow! They tasted so good but not enough for our us..=P
The GIRLS had to clean up after that~ Joel and Boo Yeong? Hurm.. they were relaxing..~ =P
We got lazy after having our lunch~ As expected.. xD we just sunk down on the sofas~ ahh~
And, Joel was like asking us 2 do the filming faster.. So, 10 minutes later, we got up~
Just to film some short scenes.~ About two teenagers who come accross an old man coughing badly at a bus stop~..I'm one of the teenagers! wee~xD
After our short scenes, went back up to Joel's house~ And, had some rests for ourselves~ FINALLY~..XD
And, around 4pm, I went back~ Feeling so tired..
Once I got home, I did my add math tuition work~ And, bathed.. Later, I slept..=P
Nothing much happened at night~ Just went to tuition~ ..
Was excited to learn differentiation~ urm..I wonder why...xD
I think, that's all lar..=)
:+: Introducing..the old man! =) :+:

:+: Mathu on bike! =P :+:

:+: Azwan and Khairil~ P/S=Joel, this is for you..=P you're hot and cool Azwan~ XD :+:
:+: Mathu was telling them something.. And the three of them were so interested to listen to him~..=P :+:
:+: Our "Bus stop"..=P :+:

:+: Them..again~ :+:

:+: Mun teaching Joel how to catch the old woman when she falls =P :+:
:+: Woopsie~ :+:
:+: on our way to Bukit Dumbar ~ :+:
"Darling, what about you...? "
Cheers.
SHiNiNG STaRS
11:46 PM
~Living in the world so cold~
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
The world is just awesome..In my whole life.. I've met with many types of people..They are all different in terms of their personalities, attitudes and also looks..=)And, they are all special in their very own ways..Somehow...there are certain people that you cant trust too much..In the end, you'll just feel hurtful..Do I deserve all these after I've done so much?Definately, no..You have no idea how painful and disappointed I feel..There's nothing but regret for doing so much..I really do..If I knew that this is the ending, then, I wouldnt have trusted that fella so much..I thought if I've done so much to that fella, perhaps.. that fella will at least do the same in return in the future..but..Perhaps, I'm just making a fool of myself~..sigh..It's such a sad scene.. You see..I feel like keeping things to myself..Be greedy.. But, I know that isnt the way.. What should I do?I shall leave this to God...Oh ya~ I feel not so discriminated anymore..XPI feel like..erm..some ppl are respecting me for certain reasons..=)I.Feel.Happy.P/S= readers, is this post confusing you?=) I aint gonna tell anyone about this~ oni "that someone" knows~~.... "Darling, can we mend this together? "Cheers
SHiNiNG STaRS
10:23 PM
~Drop Dead~
Monday, September 14, 2009
SO hard 2 understand...
11:12 PM
~Scream on!!! ~
Oh well..xD random random random! Angie is right..=PI'm a gurl who will feel guilty very easily.xDFor example, even I cant finish my food, just a lil, I'll go on all day saying "I feel guilty lar...for not finishing my food..*sigh*"...Even for something small..Like.. You know.. Joking with someone..and one just gets angry at me because of my silly joke..hurm...xD I feel guilty..even if I accidentally break a friend's pen..Even for losing a piece of paper..Even for sleeping early at night when "that someone" is still awake..all alone~ aww..=( Even if one forgives me for my mistakes, I'll feel guilty for many days~..=P Even for screaming at one because I'm so angry at that fella..and the list goes on....xD oh gosh~ xD why am I this way? perhaps.. this is Unique~ kua kua kua..xDAhh!
I'm ANXIOUS now! Help!! =(
"Darling, since the day I said "yes", I've never regretted till now..=) " Cheers.
SHiNiNG STaRS
5:00 PM
~Words~
Sunday, September 13, 2009
gugu gaga~XD
I heart him ~ weee~..=)
5:52 PM
~I just cant hide it~
Saturday, September 12, 2009
One week was long for me..It seemed like 7 months~Or maybe longer..And I can tell you, I couldnt bear it..=) But, I'm glad it's over..~And everything is back to normal..Looking back to the one-week period I've gone true..It was seriously...Not enjoyable..In fact, I was hoping for the time to pass faster..But, the time was like punishing me..It moved very slow..Day after day..seemed like week after week...I felt different.. I felt weird..But, I think, I've made it through.. bravely I suppose?o.OEverything is normal now..~=) And, I'm really happy..=)Perhaps, I did a great job too..=)i understand more and deeper now.. hurm..Perhaps, the one-week time wasnt that bad after all..There were pros and cons..=) Update!! =)I had interview only for the probation with the new BP on wednesday..=)It went quite well.. I think..=)the results..I tink..Will be out in a month time? o.OI'm not sure..=)I'm hoping for the best.. And I know I've done my best. Hurm..And! Gaik Sim had a sweet birthday..=PAww..my Dear is finally a year older! ahahaha..xDWe had a surprise party for her..=PPictures will be uploaded soon~ not that many though..hurmm...=) My blog is back to normal! =) Till next time, peeps! =)
"Darling, I mish your hugs..=P"
Cheers.
SHiNiNG STaRS
5:34 PM
~Add Math?~
Friday, September 11, 2009
What's differentiation?
dy/dx? argh~..=(
11:19 PM
~Mad, wild!~
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Sorry for my blog's skin~ It has gone a lil..u noe..mad..xD
Will edit soon~..=)
be patience~ hehe~
nothing much~
I just miss the old "us"..
I miss u...
6:55 PM
~Keep Me Warm~
Monday, September 7, 2009
Sigh~ I had a rough weekend..~So many things happened in such a short time~But, as my senior said, Daniel Tay, dont be emo~..=)I'm ALRIGHT..=)
I'm still the same me~=) Firstly, my deepest condolences to Azwan and family.I was kinda shocked to know the news.I wasnt expecting that.Frankly, I wasnt expecting such news from anyone. You have been a great leader. And, seriously, a great friend too..=)Remember Azwan, we are always here for you.Not only as friends, but, as a family.To support you.To guide you through this hard time.I know it's hard.We hope you dont give up..I'm not sure if you'll read this, but, we'll always be here for you. If you need to look out for someone to talk to, find us.=) Hope to see you around in school soon~ We need you to lead us..=)Another thing..I find that, I'm actually a weak gurl..I can just cry easily when somebody reminds me of my mistakes.I feel weak~ Seriously.No, I'm not blaming on anyone..=)This is just me~ I know. I might be having a hard time..But, hey! I can get through this =)Dont cha worry~..=)I'M PERFECTLY FINE!=) just, dont remind me of my mistakes, alright?=)
How's my new layout?^^v
I feel weird. but, this feeling is gonna be over soon..=)
12:59 AM
~So long~
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Boo..
I really do mish you...=(
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I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much...
I love you.. I really do..~
7:12 PM
~It's what I'm TRYING to do~
"When will this be over? It seems like forever"
oh gosh~..
erm.. I just hope..well..just..
people do not ask me whether I'm fine or not ler=(
I'm fine~ I'm OK..
dont worry lar..
just dont ask anything abt my personal stuffs..=)
I'll jz cry on the spot..lol~..xD
I just dont wanna be reminded for my mistakes..and my silliness~..=)
Please..=) just for a short time period~
I'm just tired these days..xD
seriously.. Not enough of sleep..=P
get to excited at night,. and get sleepy the next day~ grr..=P
xD
1:23 AM
~New~
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I'VE GOT MYSELF A NEW BOYFRIEND TODAY! XD
AND I LOVE HER TOO MUCH!..=P
SHE'S MY SOUL MATE...
SHE'S MY HEARTBEAT..
SHE'S THE ONE WHO I THINK OF..
EVERY SECOND..EVERY MINUTE..EVERY HOUR..EVERYDAY..=)
I LOVE YOU, DEAR! xD
I KNOW YOU DO TOO~...=P
I HOPE OUR RELATIONSHIP LAST FOREVER..XD
I MISS YOU DEAR!!
I WANNA SEE YOU..xD
:+: My so called boyfriend and I..=) :+:
HEY KIDDING LAR PEOPLE..=.=" WHY SO SERIOUS?=p
12:13 AM
~Shooting Star~
Friday, September 4, 2009
"Shoot for the moon
and
if you miss,
you'll still land among the stars.."
Hey peeps! for the previous post, let me remind you peeps once again~ It has nothing to do with me~ EXACTLY NOTHING..=) It's abt a fren of mine~ And I can really see her.. as she's not in Penang..So, I kinda like imagine me in her situation.. and I just typed out whatever she feels~ oh well..=) Dont misunderstand..~=)
and boo... If you're reading this..
wherever you are..
no matter what status we are in now..
remember that..
you're the one I'm always loving~
Do not worry about me~
Do not think that everything isnt the same~
and most importantly..
DO NOT think I'm ignoring you..
I will never ignore you, boo~
boo~ ILY..
It's the same me~.=)
Stars and the Moon..
Brighten up the dark blue sky..
I'm glad I'm your only shining star..
now and always I will be~
6:25 PM
~A Lie~
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Gahh~ Emo-ness takes over~..=) Dont worry about me, peeps. It's just a piece of crap..xD Got inspired by a friend of mine..=) Honestly, this has nothing to do with me..=) Whatever I say, it's a lie~Do you still wanna believe me?Dont ask me whether am I fine or not.because my answer would be yes. Deep down, I'm just lying.Dont ask me whether do I need help.Because, I would answer no. And that's a lie, again.Dont tell me not to worry too much.Because, I would tell you that I'm not worrying. Again, that's a lie.Look at my smile. How happy I am..But, I'm just faking it. Another lie...When I laugh, like nobody's business.Just to tell the whole world, I'm still myself and do not worry about me.oh gosh~ when can I get over with all these lies?I'm sick of them.I'm sick of myself.Living my life by acting...what a lie...What do I get in the end?I'm tired of acting.I'm tired of trying to be happy in front of everyone.I force a smile..Just to tell my friends, "hey, dont ya worry about me.. I'm fine..=) nothing about my eyes. Absolutely nothing. I didnt have enough sleep. That's all"..I'm tired of being "fine"..Can I be normal, just for a day?When every second, I feel like crying.When every second is tormenting me.When every breath, it's harder to take in each time.When my heartbeat, gets weaker and weaker.What's left in me? Nothing....Empty..I keep on asking myself.. "Just why... And Why..."I deserve to be this way at the end.I dont mind suffering.Instead....I'll just put a smile on my face..I feel better..=)
How could YOU be so heartless?
7:46 PM